"Devotional Eyes"(Since 1933)

"I am losing myself slowly" [Epi. 17]

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16 years ago....

"Why my bear is crying hm, halmeoni is fine now, n-now stop cry-crying you son of a soldier right who's dad is a brave soldier they shouldn't cry like this"

A 10 years old boy was sitting near his halmeoni's bed where she was laying on apparently looking so weak and feeble to even move a bit from her bed, doctors tried many different ways to treat her to save her life but which medicine will work on the person who herself have no willingness to live anymore.

It's not been even one week when she got news of her only son's martyr and she was suffering with her aging diseases she is becoming more weak since she got the misery, her heart isn't enough strong nowadays.

"Halmeoni will be fine right? She won't leave me like dad" the hope in his innocent eyes left her throat tied to comprehend anything more, it's not easy for her too she was living till now looking at that pure face afar from any guilt or confession her day was starting seeing her bear bring her morning's medicine which she used to forget and end it put him sleep under the imagination different kind of tales and stories, he loved them to listen every night, thus his ten years old soul aware that those are just part of someone's imagination nothing is real....

But among those there was one which was real, special and that one the boy's favorite, His halmeoni used to repeat that one story whenever he says without getting bored he would listen it silently, the story was about his dad and about his bravery in the battle field how he retrieved lives during the crucial time in country

For him his dad was his inspiration, an ideal who can never be defeated as always in the end of the story halmeoni reassure him that his dad will come back to his champ as he promised

But today the old lady feeling so weak to assure him again what if his grandson remember her as a person who never kept her person, a lier, time changes a person every seconds he would understand his halmeoni too when he will be grown up and get matured she knows but a part of her convincing in denial

"Tae my bear you are a big boy now isn't it" She asked in her slow shaky breaths, the boy responded with a nod holding tears in eyes

"So my bear will you promise me something, will you be good person like your dad when you will grow up, promise me you will take care of your mom and grandfather and will become what your heart say....promise me"

She was afraid, afraid to lose his grandson too like his son when she won't be there to stop anyone, won't be there to protect him, so many questions, 'what ifs' trembling her heart to future possibilities

The kid has no idea of those turmoil of his halmeoni's he just knew she asked for a promise to him and he has to nod, he did....when he parted his lips to say anything both flinched when the room's door burst open where a man in his 55s was standing with void of empathy

"Taehyung go back to your room and sleep it's already late"

He grumbled in authoritative tone, the other two souls flinched at the sudden possession but the boy didn't let the man say anything else he quickly stood up sparing a glance at his grandmother ran out of the room leaving her promises unanswered

"Why are you not letting him to spend little time here you know my health conditions then-" She whispered asking the old man the reasoning, he went by to sit on his rocking chair not finding any impotence to glance at the sick lady on bed, but cut off before completing her sentence with his heavy tone

"It's better for him before he admit boarding institute sentiments will conduct weakness in him and I don't want it happen when he will join force in future he has to be brave and strong"