He saved me. (phanfiction)

Chapter 1 - Is this real?

As I got home I slammed my front door shut, threw my school bag to the floor and ran up stairs. I was so excited to see Phil's new video! I quickly unbuttened my shirt and hopped into my pj's I then grabbed my laptop and banged down the keyboards so heavily that it sounded like it was thundering outside, I searched in Youtube and signed in with my username Danisnotonfire. Don't laugh okay, I thought it was good at the time and I use it for everything now; Twitter, Facebook, Myspace, Formspring so I can't go changing it now can I? I signed in and searched for 'uploads only' in my subscriptions and nothing.

Phil hasn't uploaded his new video. I sit and ponder to myself thinking how lame I am that the only happiness I count on is from someone that doesnt even know I exist. 

I sent a tweet to him going: "@AmazingPhil Hey Phil, gutted you havent made a new video, was looking forward to it." I send one always after I watch a new video of his, he never replies but it's worth a shot? 

about 20 minutes later after re-watching old video's of his I got a notification it was from twitter! Phil had replied to me. I couldn't believe it, I was so star struck. He wrote back "@danisnotonfire Oh man I am sorry, busy with uni, but thanks for wanting a video didnt know people liked them ^.^" I sat there with my mouth in shock, did this happen? I didn't hesitate to tweet him back! "@AmazingPhil It's okay, I know how work can get, rubbish eh >.> and of course, your videos are amazing, they've saved me" 

I sat there, wondering if he was going to reply. What if he thinks im a weirdo? what if he hates me? what if he doesnt like me? those thoughts were going through my mind.

But nope, I knew Phil he had a heart of gold of course he replied. /maybe he didn't reply those other times because of uni and work/ Phil tweeted back saying "@danisnotonfire you seem really cool dan, do you want skype? I can't believe I've saved you, lets skype?" My dreams were coming true, I was going to talk to my favourite youtuber ever face to face. well not really but you know what I mean. I didn't waste no time to tweet him back saying "@Amazingphil of course! my skype is danisnotonfire, as with everything else haha" And I sat and waited for him to add me.

Ping! that was skype. Phil had added me and we were going to talk. WOW!

"h-h-hello, dan?" he spoke the first words.

"PHIL! Hello" I say with excitement, tears ready to explode.

"Dan, I am so honoured you like my videos! you seem like a really cool guy" he claimed

"you're you're honoured of me li li liking your videos? r r rrrr really?" I muttered.

"yeah, I am *laughs* why are you so in shock for? Im not a snob" he jokes

"it's just that..that you've saved me and I haven't even thanked you yet for that, you made my life worth living Phil. Thankyou so so so much" I confessed

Phil had a tear rolling down his cheek, he wiped it and began to spoke,

"Dan I ... I don't know what to say? I am so happy I've made your life worth living everyone deserves to live. Dan, life right now at school might be the worst experience you'll ever have but trust me, the world is waiting for you! You will have your time to shine you are extraordinary and you are worth so much, I am so glad I tweeted you back and I am so glad I've come accross you. If you don't mind can I ask how? I mean if you don't want to it's okay, I understand but I can tell by the happyness drained from your eyes you need to talk...please?" he pled.

I burst into tears, Phil had offered to listen to me and want to get to know me, Nobody has ever asked about me, not even my own parents. The teachers don't care because all they care is about getting good grades so it looks good for them so their payrise will go higher. I held onto his words "You will have your time to shine you are extraordinary and you are worth so much" nobody has ever said anthing like this to me before, all what I get told is to "kill myself". But Phil was right I did need to let everything out... so I did.

"Okay but you might get depressed afterwards though?" I jokingly say

phil laughed with me. Not at me.

"Well it all started in year 7, I really fancied this guy next to me in English class. I told him I liked him for some odd reason and he pulled away ever so fast and screamed "GAY FAGGOT, EW DONT TOUCH ME" he then kicked me. I started crying so the teacher gave me some time out. The news got out that I was gay but I didnt realise till the next morning, everyone in my school knew I wasnt attracted to girls and I always got strange looks, I felt like there was something wrong with me. What am I a freak? Anyways it got so much worse since then nearly every day I would get pushed around and slapped...." I got cut off 

"what? didnt the teachers do anything? what? oh my god dan I am so sorry" phil says in a soft tone voice, which was reassuring.

"no, the people did it when no teachers were around. Most of the time it would be after school and apparently "the teachers can't do anything about that" and I did tell them but the bullies wormed their way out of it as usual" I scream with abit of anger

"wow they're really crap teachers Dan, they shouldn't even teach" phil claims

"...well... you know" [sigh] I hate talking about my past.

Phil sat there with a shock on his face. He really does care.

I carried on.. "After they finished slapping me around they would lock me in the store cupboard where the cleaner keeps everything. I would be in there for half of the day, my grades went down and so did my happiness, I went into a really bad phase. sometimes I  still visit it. Phil, please don't hate me please I can't live knowing you would hate me" 

"I...I...I would never hate you? Whats the matter Dan?"

"Please don't think i'm a freak like everyone else" 

"Dan, I would never ever think of you in that way, you are already amazing. You've already made me happy and I've known you what? 2 hours. please tell me I might be able to help you, Promise"

"I... I... I cut, I cut, I cut, I cut" Once I said it I couldnt stop

"Oh Dan, I understand everything and why you would it but it's not the right way ever to let your feelings out. I have a little secret myself dan... I use to cut too when I was younger. And I already know what you're thinking "why tell you to stop when i've done it myself" well that is because it's not worth it, I recovered by doing the butterfly project, You draw a butterfly on your wrist and name is after to someone you love or care about, and when you go to cut just remember that you will be cutting the person you love the most and the butterfly will die, Promise to do this?" he pleaded

I sat there listening to everything he was saying, tears nearly filling up my eyes. Phil use to cut too? but he is so happy and bubbly.. If he can get through this then so can I.

"I promise" I say to him

"Thankyou Dan, and I'll be checking up on you everynight okay?" Phil ordered

"okay, well I... I... I.. gotta go now, thanks for everything" I shut down my laptop before he could say anything, I cried. I sat there and cried, finally not sad tears these were tears of relief. I know I shouldnt of cut him off but I didn't want to cry infront of him. 

I grabbed a black marker and drew a butterfly on my wrist, I named it 'Phil Lester' now there would be no way I would cutting if I named it after him.

I lay down on my bed and look up to the ceiling. Is this real? or am I dreaming.

A/N Hello so Phil and Dan finally speak yay ^_^ I just finished this so I don't know when the next paragraph will be up bc writers block and schooool has started! Okay, bye! and please don't forget to rate :):):)