Lost pride... (ThirdReich x Soviet Union) (ThirdUnion)) (Completed)

21.

WG was sitting under the tree reading with EG climbing the tree laughing. Soon hanging from it. Soviet was watching them from his office and smiled gently but then look down upset "I remember when Reich would draw under a tree and Weimar would climb it...or when Weimar was not there I would be sleeping with my head on his lap" he look down and got out of his office. Walking to the room of his ex lover "Reich..."

He saw him looking out the window at the twins "mm?" Soviet walk over to him and pat his head. Immediately Reich moved from his touch and put hands over his head like he was protecting it "stop touching me"

"...stop being selfish"

"Selfish?"

"Yes selfish. You let me before. Let me again"

"But-"

"Let me do it again! Let me touch you again!" Soviet close his fists and raise his hand

Reich watch him. He tear up and nod "...okey" the close the curtains and slowly took off his shirt "come on"

Soviet watch him "what you doing"

"What you want" Reich took off the pants and then turn around with his butt up "touch me"

Soviet watch him "...not like that"

"What else would you want from me..."

"I know you know....you are not that dumb" gently he touch scars under his butt that he himself made "...this time you didn't flinch"

Reich look back at him "well that easy..." he set down "when I don't feel anything I am not scared...that's what you want?"

"Reich you are playing mind games!" Soviet grab his shoulders and pin to the bed "I love you!" He tear up as tears fell onto his face "I-I love you..."

One fell at the end of Reich's eyes and went down his cheek...it looked like he was crying too "...you love me"

"YOU KNEW THAT ALREDY!"

"What you did to me wasn't love..."

"AND WHAT YOU DID TO ME WASNT LOVE TOO!"

"...Sowjet...you eye is bleeding"

"I DONT CARE! I WANT YOUR LOVE BACK" he lay next to him only snuggling and crying "t-take me back..."

"Oh Sowjet..." Reich gently caressing his head "I feel really scared now"

"I-I can feel you trembling slightly...I won't do a-anything you don't want me to do...I am your husband..."

"We never got married..."

"I am your fiancé"

"No...you are not" Reich gently push him "there is a reason why I don't have a ring anymore" he look down "it's still in the basement"

"Reich...will you marry me"

"No"

"...but you would be free"

"We are not ready for that" gently Reich push him off "Please...from the day you did...everything to me I was done...my love for you is gone"

"B-But-"

"There is no but....I don't love you like I used to"

Soviet look down "...so all I did came to bite me in the ass"

"And all I did came too...please go now"

"Yeah..." Russian got up wiping his eyes and sniff "yeah..." he left

Reich look down and hug his knees. He was just to scared...the love they used to feel was different now but it was still there...the thing that hurts them the most were their own mistakes...and those can never be erased

Soviet set in the basement reading his diaries

"Will you marry me..."

Reich stared at Soviet and tear up "I-I can't! I am not ready!"

"But-"

"I don't wanna do it!"

Soviet look down and got up. He gently grab his hand putting ring onto it then onto his own "then we will be fiancés in that time...I will wait years...centuries for you..."

"I am sorry..."

"No..." Soviet gently kiss his head "I am not mad...it hurts a lot...but...it's okey" he sniff "just stay with me..."

"Sowjet..." Reich looked up at him and wrapped arms around his neck "I still love you..."

"I know" Soviet smiled gently grabbing his waist with ease "I love you too..."

"Don't ever hate me...please...you are only person I can ever loved...only person I can see myself next to...I don't want anyone but you..."

Soviet giggled gently but then sniff and started sobbing. He hug him tightly crying in his neck "me too!"

Reich cares his head "I am sorry I can't do it..."

"I-I wanna marry you! I wanna marry you so badly! I understand your side but I really wanna do it!"

"I just can't..."

"Promise me then! Promise me that one day you will marry me! That one day you will call me your husband! Promise me that!"

"I promise..."

"Y-You will marry me...say it"

"This is manipulation..." Reich put hands on his cheeks and smiled "I promise...I will marry you" he sniff "but just not now..."

"And I promise that I will never let you go...I will always keep you safe in my arms happy and warm...you will never feel cold...never feel like life is just a punishment you can't escape....never...never make you feel unsafe around me...you will always be safe with me"

Reich blush and wipe his tears then his "Please do..." he wrapped their hands together and snuggled in his neck "...I want you to keep me safe..."

"You are only safe in my hands..."

Soviet throw diary on other side of his house and put hands through his hand "FUCK!" He didn't do his side...he promised to never make Reich feel cold, but let him sleep for days on the cold floor in the cold basement all naked...that he will always make him feel happy but all he did was make him go back to the stage of mentality he was in after his twin got killed...and he didn't protect him...he himself brought danger to Reich...instead of keeping him safe and making him feel happy...he made him feel miserable...maybe beating him up and calling names after Reich's suicide attempt was not right thing to do...at that time he was just so scared and hurt but his actions brought them to the situation where his lover can't touch him whitout shaking...they didn't even kiss in so long...and for it to be a real one...last real kiss was when Reich tried to kill hismelf
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