Whispers of my heart

The Yearning Heart

I hate that I love you. I just hate the fact that I love you as much as I hate you. I know for a fact that you despise me, and all you've ever done is be a jerk to me! But why does my heart still beat fast for you? Why do I get butterflies just from an eye contact that we share? All you do is look at me with those hateful eyes, but do you know that I always look at you so lovingly, admire you from afar, and adore you?

Do you even know that I love you? It hurts, it really does, knowing that you'll never love me, and all you've ever done is hurt me. But here I am, still seeking your love and hoping that one day, by some miracle, you'll love me. Have I lost my mind? I must have.
I thought maybe, just maybe, if you went away from my life, I'd move on from you, maybe even forget about you completely. But my heart proved me wrong. When you were away from me, all I did was think about you, crave your sight, and miss you dearly. It was like my heart was away from me, and I was just living without emotions, thinking about you.
Do you know how one sight of you makes me happy? In fact, it drives me crazy! Again, how can you know? I never confessed my feelings to you, afraid that you'd reject me. So I bottled my feelings without telling anyone, not even my best friend, because I don't want anyone to feel bad about me.

If I were beautiful, with no flaws, maybe you'd love me. Maybe you'd hold me in your arms when I'm scared, whisper sweet nothings when we're cuddling, and proudly show me off to all your friends, telling them how badly you want to wife me up. But who am I kidding? This will never be our reality.

Oh, how cruel you are for making me fall for you, for making me yearn for you! I hate this feeling. I really want to move on from you, but you only taught me how to love you. You didn't bother to teach me how to move on from you... I REALLY HATE THAT I LOVE YOU.