monster in me
i wish i could hide you,
like the palpable secrets
under my bed.
i wish i could erase you,
like the mistakes in my
drawing and writing.
i wish i couldn't see you,
like the red flags i was blind
to, beating within my chest.
i wish i were numb,
unable to feel anything.
just as this trauma has
left me emotionless.
i wish i were never you,
just as i despise the
monstrous mask that
lives in front of my face.
but how can i push you
away, when, in the midst
of pain, you appeared
to protect me?
maybe i never hated
you at all.
maybe...
they only call you a monster,
just because they're
afraid of what they've
turned you into.
YOU ARE READING
tears & emptiness
PoetryI never felt special at all, just a ghost in the silence, waiting for an end to crawl. © Trinauthentic_2024
