𝐇𝐀𝐈𝐊𝐘𝐔𝐔 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒

kuroken [comfort]

"kenma, you have to realize that you're hurting yourself," kuroo looked at the other who sat on the couch watching tv, the same show he's watched at least ten times. he hasn't left the house in weeks since summer vacation started.

kenma didn't acknowledge kuroo, he didn't care about getting better, in his mind he's fine so that's how'll it will stay. he doesn't care about his mental condition, in his eyes he's not depressed.

he feels more like, impossible he can't be suicidal. kenma loved things in life, he loved waking up each day.

so who cares if he only showers once a week, how it's getting hard to brush his teeth, how he's sleeping for more than ten hours a day, not even because he's tired, but because he feels like he can't get up.

he feels tired, even after sleeping. he's been losing weight and okay, maybe he hasn't been eating and yes, he cut off all connections with his friends. he's just taking a break in his eyes.

"kenma please look at me," said his boyfriend, that's been trying to help out kenma as much as he can while trying to juggle his own life as well.

kenma's mom is only home at night, she gets back to work late and goes in early. sometimes kenma doesn't see her for days. but she has to support herself and kenma.

slowly, kenma turned his head over to kuroo, who immediately saw his face and pulled him into a hug, "this mentality you have isn't good love, we gotta' change it,"

kenma sighed into the others chest, "i told you that im not suicidal, i'm not going to kill my self.

"kenma?." kuroo asked as the other hummed, "if you were struggling in the ocean and drowning, would you try to swim or would you let yourself sink?," he said.

kenma looked into kuroo'a eyes, "what's that supposed to mean?,"

kuroo sighed, "if someone came in here by force and told you to beg for your life, you wouldn't beg would you?,"

"yeah obviously because that's pointless, who cares if i die at this moment? i don't. why should i beg for something i didn't even ask for? i didn't want to be here in the first place and now i have to beg to stay in the horrible place? absolutely not!," kenma started to get loud.

"baby you can't—" kuroo was cut off,

"no!," he got off kuroo's lap,"i hate it here! kuroo i'm so tired all day, i don't even remember the last time i ate. i can barely shower or fucking play video games! i can't even remember the last time something felt good! that doesn't mean i'm depressed it just means that—"

"what does it mean ken?," kuroo whispered, "does it mean that you don't want to live anymore?,"

for the first time in weeks, kenma started crying, "kuroo, stop it! shut up! don't make me say it! im fine! kuroo why do you bring this up!," he screamed.

"baby, please calm down, i just want to help you—"

"I DON'T NEED HELP!," kenma shouted at kuroo, tears streaming down his face, eyes red and puffy.

kuroo stood up and hugged kenma with all his love and life as the other sobbed,

"im here for you tetsu!, im still here because the only life i care about is yours!," he continued to cry.

kuroo sat down holding kenma, letting him cry his heart out. he knows how much kenma needs this. he rubbed kenma's back and whispered sweet nothings into his ear.

"how about, you pack a bag and come to my house for a little, instead of me coming here. maybe you need a change of setting. and i have a movie room remember, with the big projector, we can watch your favorite movie. and let's go get your favorite pork buns from the store down the street, how does that sound?" he rubbed kenma's sides as the other one looked up at him nodding.

that night kenma felt loved, for the first time in a while. they watched movies and drank hot chocolate and finally kenma ate. the snuggled and there were lots and lots of tears. but it's okay.

it will always be okay, he will always be okay,

especially in kuroo's arms.

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(wc: 716)