Why can't I have my share of happiness? My share of love ? Why am I the only one left heartbroken ?
I was beyond broken when I saw the love of my life sliding the ring in someone else's hand . It was supposed to be me in that place but it's not me...
A single word of six alphabets holds a deep meaning behind it .
This is what I'm feeling right now broken because I'm a coward . IMMA FUCKING COWARD
I couldn't confess my feelings to my gazal only if I was brave enough to confess to tell her what I feel to express her my emotions only if I was brave enough
Then it would be me standing in his place .
Murtasim khan !
You are lucky Murtasim because you got yourself the best girl . She is a gem .
My gem .
I Love you Aafia and will always love you let it be with me or without me i wish for your happiness .
You deserve the whole world my girl .
From today onwards there is no more "Kia"
You are one lucky man Murtasim always keep her happy because of you will not than I will fucking choke you to death!
I always wished that I will be the one who will roam in the mind of Aafia 24/7 I will be the one she'll wait for at night.
I'll be the one she will smile at I will be the one she will rely on to cry , smile ,laugh everything!
But atlas! It's all my dream which will never be fulfilled
I am in pain
Please someone take it away please take it away I can't bear it please someone just kill me already it's getting intolerable please I beg you anyone just take this pain away ....
She silded that ring his finger she did that ! Please please please ya allah please take away this love in my heart for her
Please don't make me love someone who isn't mine!
Please ya allah I know she will never be mine please don't make me love her more
I can't bear it ...
I can't breath
I can't breath
I can't breath
With this i dashed out of the venue and sat in my car i drove to that one destination I knew I won't be left empty handed ...
I went to dargah !
Hazrat Nizamuddin Auliyah's dargah !
This is situated in Delhi i went in as I covered my head with my handkerchief I went in taking the Chadar and flowers
I know I'm being selfish Hazrat but why can't I have her ? Why am I empty handed ? I have loved her from ten years ! Why is she not in my destiny ? Why can't I stop loving her ? Why ? Just why ?
Why is it happening to me ?
Tears which I kept in my eyes to stop myself crying in the venue there now flowed freely from my eyes .
I raised my hand in dua
Ya Rab please make my heart forget her please my lord you are tho most merciful you live your worshipper more than seventy mothers please make her thoughts go away
I beg you my rab I know She will never be mine because she is Amanat of someone else now!
She is Murtasim's Amanat
I cried I cried and cried till my heart felt light With this i drove to another place I drove to Kabrastan (graveyard ) and went towards a particular grave ....
Aaliya Armaan Khan Was written on a particular grave i went towards it .
Sitting beside the grave i smiled with tears in my eyes .
"You know Ammi she got engaged today"
"She is not mine ammi she is going to marry someone else who is not me she is going to love someone who is not me she is going to spend her life with someone who is not me she is going to have kids with someone who is not me "
"She is going to live her life normally but what about me ? I'm not going to love someone who is not her I'm not going to marry someone who is not her I'm not going to spend my life with someone who is not her I'm not going to have kids with someone who is not her "
"Why one sided lovers are like starts ? Who are too many in the sky but not special enough to get close to moon whom we love ?"
"Why?"
I cried my heart out in front of my mother who is no more my mother !
Every child runs to their mother when they are hurt and try to find solace in the Aanchal of their mom but why am I so unlucky? I didn't got my love and I don't have a mother with whom I can share my grief with .
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