Truth or Dare (Stray Kids FF)

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(Felix's POV)

[May 24]

{3:25am}

I couldn't sleep. One of the nurses, I don't remember her name, brought me a blanket and said I should get some rest but I couldn't. I just sat there. Staring at the wall. I had only left that spot once and it was to speak to the police about Hellen. She's already been arrested but the cops still questioned me about the previous harassment and now the assault. 

DR: "Mr. Lee?" 

I jump at the sudden mention of my name. The doctor who was operating on Ash is standing in front of me. His eyes are... blank. 

FL: "T-that's me..." 

DR: "I'm sorry... we did everything we could... but they didn't survive."

I felt the tears forming as my heart sank with every word. In that moment my whole world shattered. They're gone and I couldn't save them. I had left them alone. The tears won't stop and my breathing is quick and ragged. I can't be alone. I need someone here. I reach for my phone dialing the one person I know will be here withing a millisecond. 

BC: "Hel-" 

FL: "Chan... Ash is gone. Someone broke into the house and attacked them and I wasn't the-"

BC: "Felix, breathe. I'm on my way. You're at the hospital now?" 

FL: "Y-yes..." 

BC: "I'll be there in ten." 

With that he hung up. I didn't want to be alone and I knew the guys would find out soon enough but I had to tell them myself. I called everyone telling them what happened. Not once had my tears stopped. Chan showed up as I had just gotten off the phone with Seungmin. I stood up and he didn't say anything just hugged me comfortingly. I just cried. I couldn't even hug him back. He let me go and we both sat down in the hospitals chairs. 

BC: "Who were you on the phone with?" 

FL: "Seungmin... I was telling him what had happened. Thought it'd be better to hear it from me than our manager." 

BC: "You made the right choice in that. Who else do you need to call?"

FL: "Well I need to make arrangements for a funeral since they don't have any family here... and Hyunjin..."

Chan sighs thinking.

BC: "Here's  what we'll do. Either I call the funeral home or I'll call Hyunjin. It's up to you who you want to call though." 

FL: "Can you make the arrangements..? It'll feel more real than it already does and I don't think I have the heart to do it..." 

BC: "Of course... I'm going to step outside. Are you going to be okay talking to him without me here?" 

I nod but Chan knows me better than anyone. I won't be okay... but I have to do it myself. I turned my phone on staring at the wallpaper. It was a picture of Ash and I at the cat cafe with a little white cat who had big blue eyes. Ash said they were going to steal the little creature and name her Milk of all things. I open the phone and dial Hyunjins number. The phone rings. My leg bounces with every second. 

HJ: "Hello..."

FL: "Hyunjin... it's Felix."

HJ: "What the hell do you wa-" 

FL: "Ash is gone..." 

HJ: "What do you mean..?"

I took a deep breath. I've gone through this conversation seven times already but this one felt different. 

FL: "Someone broke into our house. Ash was there alone and..."

I heard his breath growing rapid. 

HJ: "She really did it..."

Hyunjin sobbed over the phone. 

FL: "Hyunjin what do you know about this?" 

HJ: "I'm sorry... it's my fault..." 

The line goes quiet. He had hung up. 

{5:20am}

{At Felix's house}

Chan drove me home. He wanted to come inside but I just wanted to be alone. I'm currently in my bedroom laying on the bed staring at the ceiling. I felt numb. No emotions were flowing through me. I started to close my eyes but a little glint of something caught it. I turn my head looking at Ash's nightstand. A snow-globe with a plain white base and a white leafless tree on the inside sat there. I sit up on the edge of the bed grabbing the small glass globe examining it. This was Ash's favorite snow-globe. Their prized possession. It was the last thing their mother had given them. The stories they used to tell me about their parents. An abusive dad and a caring mother. Ash always had panic attacks when it came to yelling or physical violence so I never asked about their home life. However, they told me all about their mother. From the abuse she endured physically and mentally to her last moments. Ash always blamed themself for her death. Now I'm blaming myself for their death.