We all carry things inside of us that others cannot see, some should be kept inside us,others should be let free
There’s no point holding onto things that drag us down, things that come to life when no ones around
Its these things that destroy us inside to out, make us do silly things when no ones about
A mirror image
When you look in the mirror
What is it that you see?
Is it the diminishing figure of reality
Or rather who you wish to be?
I see the figure of a girl in a constant battle
To be who everybody wants her to be
To be; beautiful intelligent wise and charming
She is under stress, this i must be
I must be; beautiful intelligent, wise and charming
They put her under pressure without understanding
Everything they want from her
Is only leading to self harming
She starts to cut herself
To see how much she can bleed
She starts to starve herself
Something she knows she can succeed
It harms her and this she understands
But she can’t runaway
It has her locked in its iron hands
She begins hating herself
She only wants out
But still gives in to its demands
It holds a firm grip
Never letting go of her hands
Everyone watches, seeing her thin
Never seeing her wither
They watch her, but only just looking
Never actually seeing within
They continue to watch
They never notice her disappear
They don’t notice her struggle
Struggle with her undying fear
Recovery
This dangerous habit
Makes me feel less alone
I see a blade, I grab it
Good thing no one’s home
The cuts will sting
Blood will be shed
It’s a sickening thing
This war in my head
But the wounds will heal
With help from my dad
I know this is real
No need to be sad
My lover will worry
He doesn’t understand
His vision is blurry
As he takes my hand
I must stop for him
If not for myself
The way out is dim
My razor lay on a shelf
I’ve thrown it away
It’s time to recover
With hope no longer at bay
I’m ready to discover
The gift of true happiness
I don’t need this pain
I was at my emptiest
With nothing to gain
My scars might fade
But that’s okay
I’ve already payed
And this is a new day
