MALE LEAD FALLS IN LOVE

Chapter 22. Make up.

August POV,

After Asher left , I realized that am making the biggest mistake of my life . I tried convincing myself that it's for the best but thinking of it , there is nothing best about letting the love of my life go , just because I haven't agreed with the fact that I love a person of same gender with mine .

I hurt him because of my own insecurities . Since he broke up with his girlfriend and we started dating seriously , everything has been perfect , I've been the happiest person ever , I've been doing my job perfectly and effectively , but I haven't filmed any series nor a movie , I released two songs which have everything to do with Asher , They are  viral now and doing great . Am still writing the novel about Asher and I  . After he read it , he convinced me to publish it and people can't stop pressuring me about the next chapters. Well , I didn't make it clear that the main characters are both men.

He's been spending most of his time in my house and sometimes I would spend at his too , he doesn't need to work anymore but just coordinate the business  . I advertised for his supermarket and now it's the most famous in the country , he has so many brunches now.

We've been happy going out but we kept everything a secret because we were not ready for the attention that will be directed to us the moment people find out , so the Only person who knew about this is Carla.

But yesterday morning we woke up and everything is a mess , I didn't expect it at all, and for that reason I didn't know how to approach the situation .

My family have been pressuring me about the news as well as everyone else , and when my parents brought the news anchors for me to refuse that it wasn't me , I had no choice but to do so .

I told my family the truth that I love Asher and they actually didn't react like I thought they would , even if they didn't like it that much , they still showed support and love . Actually , all my mom could say is that , atleast she knows that am Normal because finally am able to love someone and for that reason I won't be alone all my life .

The reason why they asked me to refuse, is because of the attention and pressure that was coming from other people , they wanted things to cool down first .

But the reason why I told Asher that we should take a break is because , I was afraid and felt disgusting about how some people were talking and criticizing us . In my entire life I've never known rejection , I didn't know how to handle that!

I couldn't stay still anymore , I don't care what more they are gonna say about us , I don't care if I'll loose all my fans , After all, them without Asher, it's nothing .

I realize that if I stay still , am not ever getting any other chance from him . I call Carla and when he arrives I ask him to take me to Asher's house, he doesn't say anything as we take off .

I arrive at his apartment , he doesn't stay at the supermarket anymore, I have his key but I've just realised that I left it at my place, so I ring the doorbell several times but doesn't open .

If it wasn't for the feeling of him being close , around me , I would have thought he is not in . But I can feel him , that he is just around me , so am assured that he is actually inside .

I take my phone and try calling him but it says he is not available , I try again using Carla's phone but it still says the same thing .

I have a feeling that he might have just blocked this number , I ask Carla to buy me another line , it's 12am but the town near us is as busy as daytime , so he rushes there while I keep trying to ring his doorbell non stop , I know for sure he is inside , I can feel it but what I don't know for sure is if he is alright .

Worry embraces me , I call him not caring if I'll be disturbing anyone or if people will know that it's me . He still doesn't respond, Carla comes back and without wasting time , I try calling him with a new numbers and it goes through but he doesn't answer , I send him a message telling him that am outside his apartment .

There's nothing , I send again telling him that I just wanna know that he is fine but he still doesn't respond , tears are already playing in my eyes, maybe I already lost the chance , I didn't know the tears let themselves out ,  I only know am crying when Carla tells me to stop crying because, he is sure Asher is fine , that he isn't the kind of a person who would do anything stupid .

"Bring me the keys , in my room in the first drawer ! " I tell him wondering why I didn't think of that earlier.

" But it's so far , by the time I come back it... "

I cut him . " Just stop talking and bring me the keys , the time you are using to talk now you'd be coming back now !" I know his problem is not that my place is far because it's actually not that far , he doesn't want to leave me here alone , he knows that when I lose my mind, I always do stupid things . My brain goes wild .

He leaves and after trying again without success , I sit on the floor in front of the door .

Minutes later , the door open and I fall inside with my back because I was leaning on it . I drag myself inside , I don't see anything because it's totally dark . I hear the door shut , I stand up .

" Asher .. ?! " He doesn't say anything , what the hell  .

I know where we put on the lights so I walk in darkness not even remembering that I have a phone I can use it's light , I put on the lights , the house becomes bright at once, he is standing there staring at me as if he has been seeing me even in darkness.

I walk towards him and hug him , he stumbles backwards as if he has no energy at all .

" It's okay, let's take a break , I didn't break up with you , I'll never break up with you , never ! I love you so much , I don't need anything in my life but you , let's take a break as long as you want , but come back to me when you are ready." He says crying while he hugs me back tightly , I cant help it but cry my heart out . Why do I always hurt him and make him cry .

" I don't want to take a break anymore" I say with alot of difficult too because all I wanna do now is cry with him .

He lets me go and looks at me even more broken . " You're breaking up with me?! I really didn't mean it when I said  that we should break up , do... "

I cut him with a kiss . " Never ! I'll never break up with you either , I've made up my mind , I don't wanna ever loose you , am gonna come out and tell everyone how much I love you."  He smiles Still crying as he hugs me again .

I ask him just to be sure that he'll be okay with my decision , I want it to be our decision, not mine . " Are you ready ? I mean your family , Will they be Okay with it . "

A flash of sadness shows on his face and disappears almost at the same time , " My parents called me earlier and they officially dishowned me , saying that I've always been a disappointment and never follow there words , they said they wont have a shame like that in their family , that I've gone too far this time , so I don't care , am ready when you're ready. "

" Am so sorry Asher . "

" There's nothing to be sorry about . "

" I'll take care of you , I'll never make you cry again , I promise , I love you so much . "

He hugs me even tighter .

" Should we come out now or some other day ? " I ask him .

" Now... " He answers.

I take out my phone ready to go live .