Sorry for not updating in a while, this is an update and a vent + explanation for now I feel (the name is a song for any who care). I've gotten more emotional, and it hurts my body to leave my bed.
Even though I've been bedrotting for literal months, it's gotten worse, I sleep with everything in such a confined space. I'm brought food by my brother sometimes. I've gotten skinnier.
My back hurts every passing second, I've started hallucinating. That's probably not relevant to this, though. (If you do have questions about it, I'll make a sub-journal for my hallucinations.)
My back seems to be growing, and I've gotten taller. The nubs on my back have gotten bigger. I can't sleep on my back anymore, but sometimes I wake up on my body. It just kind of feels like it's always in pain. It's getting worse and worse, even though I've been trying to stay as healthy as possible.
I'm starting to think that I am going to other body parts as well. My mom mentioned how long my tailbone was, which is a sign of a tail, I guess.
I'm been so much more tired, as I said last time. It's like my whole world is kind of like collapsing. But just because I can't leave my bed. I'm so tired and I haven't been eating well because I forget to eat or fruit.
I just don't like what's there to eat or there's no food. I prefer to eat mashed potatoes. Homemade French fries. Maybe like so steak. II just really want to eat healthy, but in a way, that. I actually like the food, not my mom made me this. I'm gonna eat it because it is healthy. Cause I have a very strict way of eating. I have to have a certain texture. A certain taste. I will not eat certain vegetables..
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Avian Journal 1
RandomI was born with nubs, yet nobody suspected anything, and now that I'm 14, they're finally sprouting. this is my Journal of the weeks passing and them growing. - I may forget to make updates.
