Songs I wrote while I was gone

Cheers To Goodbye

"Forgive Me"

I've been going through changes lately. I've been living life on autopilot. I will wash away my sins. I will shed my skin.

If I kill myself today, I will be reborn. Reprogram my brain. When I kill myself today, watch me as I am reborn.

I sold my soul to be reborn. The price that I paid for my worthless heart. I'm bound by blood but walking out the door. My soul will soon depart. Get me out of here.

If I kill myself today, I will be reborn. Reprogram my brain. When I kill myself today, watch me as I am reborn.

I sold my soul to rock n roll. I went down a path to the dark unknown. Bury Me, set me free, this is my darkest hour. Goodbye. So long. Fuck.

If I kill myself today, I will be reborn. Reprogram my brain. When I kill myself today, watch me as I am reborn.

Just because I wear a smile and my voice is singing songs, it's only to distract myself from pain I've felt so long. On stage my lungs are screaming to silence the inner cries. Just because my heart is beating doesn't mean that im not dead inside.

If I kill myself today, I will be reborn. Reprogram my brain. When I kill myself today, watch me as I am reborn.

"This song was written to my family to express the guilt I felt for running away as a teenager."

"Home Sweet Home"

Mom always said I was a dreamer. Dad was a ghost. I had to run away at NIGHT cause I couldn't go home. Just when things went right suddenly it all went wrong. Just take this song and you'll never feel left alone.

Take me to your heart. Feel me in your bones. Just one more night and ill be off this dark and lonely road.

I'm on my way home sweet home tonight.

You know that I've seen too many things on the streets. My life couldn't fit on the silver screen.

But I'm a open book for the whole world to read. Sometimes nothing keeps me together at the seams.

I'm on my way home sweet home tonight.

"This song was written about my childhood and the events I went through that lead me to run away as a teenager."

"Dear Mom And Dad"

I'm a hypocrite. But at least I fucking own it. You never admit when you're wrong and you know it.

The only thing wrong with this picture is that you're still here. Every night when I pray, I pray you disappear.

I hate you more than I hate myself. I hate you more than anyone else. When you're up in my face asking if I'm ok all I really wanna say is I hate you more than I hate myself. That's saying something!

I'm a piece of shit. But at least I'm fucking honest. You pulled your dirty tricks to get what you wanted.

The only thing wrong with this picture is that you're still here. Every night when I pray, I pray you disappear.

I hate you more than I hate myself. I hate you more than anyone else. When you're up in my face asking if I'm ok all I really wanna say is I hate you more than I hate myself. That's saying something!

I'm not saying I'm a perfect person. My mistakes could fill a number of graves. But knowing you exist makes me feel like less of a piece of shit. So thank you. No, really, I hate you.

"Oof. This song was written while I was staying at a group home after running away as a teenager, and I truly felt all of this at the time. Since this song released, my father and I have become on good terms again, but my mother and I don't have contact."