"Between The Lines"
If you say that we're ill.
Give us your pill.
Hope we'll just go away.
Once you've inhaled death everything else is perfume.
Maybe I'm just a mystery.
Life is made of misery.
In the end we all end up in a wooden box.
I'll be the one who holds your hand.
We are sick.
We are complicated.
We are chaos.
We can't be cured.
Married with a life damned.
So far from the maddening crowd.
Am I a man?
Am I a woman?
Am I somewhere in between?
"This song was to talk about general life experiences and how adult life really is chaos."
"Don't Chase The Dead"
Angels in exile.
Here lies the dead.
A heart of ice only melts in the inferno.
Don't chase the dead or they'll end up chasing you.
If tonight lasts forever, it won't matter if there's no tomorrow.
I've got reservations in Hell.
I know you so well.
I know you will be there too.
"This song was written as a warning not to spend your adulthood chasing your childhood nostalgia or you will end up depressed."
"Holly"
Eyes like an ocean.
Lips like candy.
Heart of gold.
Purity.
Never afraid.
Head in the sky.
You weren't my first lullaby.
Let me paint you with my love.
Starting a new life.
The chapters between are what we need.
I'm finally the man I feel I want to be.
No more therapy.
All painted pain seems far away from me.
It won't be a life sentence.
Just a daydream for you.
"This song was written about the same girl as Save Yourself and Traumatized, Holly, we got engaged shortly after this album was released."
"Champagne Problems"
The smell of your scent is like a carnival or state fair. Skin like cotton candy. So soft when its in my mouth.
I don't want to know. I don't need to know. I have champagne problems.
I need a black tie for tomorrow. It isn't about how many people cry when you die. It is about the tears they shed when you're alive.
One step forward and two steps back. That's still one step past the point of no return.
Ring the bells you can ring. There's a crack in everything. That's how the sunlight gets in.
"This song was written about my past struggles with alcoholism and overcoming them."
"Insomniac"
My dirty dreams of angels wings. They burn up in the incinerator. My heart and blood is thicker than the thickest of oils.
I'm gone so quickly.
Someone's gonna die soon. Don't get in the way. You're not the hero. You're dead longer than you're alive.
First class on the astral plane. Just because you're famous doesn't mean your worth more in the afterlife. I am not forgiving.
Black is real. You can't hide. In the darkness you can't see. No more sun.
"This song was written about the loss of innocence as you get older."
"Amnesia"
Do we get what we deserve? Do we deserve what we get? I used to hide from my past. Fuck my past. Living in the present will change the future.
Don't try to change someone else. You'll just end up changing yourself. I keep my head together. Keep your head together.
You handed me a shovel and expected me to dig my own grave. But it was the perfect shape. For you and your fantasies.
I fucking love you. I love fucking you.
"This song was written about someone I don't want to talk about."
"You Fixed Me"
You are the one.
We were meant for each other.
I wish I could be better.
I'm not special.
I'm just broken.
I don't need to be fixed.
There's no one else I wanna be like.
So I'll stay the same.
Like nobody else.
I thought I wanted to sing to crowds.
But all I needed was an ear to listen.
"This song was written way before this album came out, but I felt it didn't fit any other albums but I always wanted to release it."
"Are You Alright?"
I was in a cave.
Trapped in the darkness.
Hiding myself.
I felt broken.
I can't save myself.
But neither can you.
Just take my hand.
I'll pull you through.
Are you alright?
I'm not OK.
i feel like my life is not worth fighting for.
We're fighting a battle.
We're all alone.
We're slaughtered like cattle.
Just pick up the phone.
You won't be alone.
What is life?
Just a struggle.
We aren't alone.
We have each other."This song was written way before this album came out, but I felt it didn't fit any other albums but I always wanted to release it."
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Songs I wrote while I was gone
PoetryThis is a compilation of songs I wrote from 2022-2025 while I was not online