𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫 ʲᵃʸᵏˡⁱᶜᵏⁱⁿ

024

IN HIS CAR
HARLEM, NEW YORK
12:34PM

"Zari that fuckin baby is not mine bro get the fuck off my phone wit that shit!" I was arguing on the phone with this hoe zari. She called me just to tell me she wanted to come to her baby shower. She was already 3 months pregnant when I fucked her and her pussy was loose as hell. Can't even see how the fuck I felt that shit. I feel horrible that I even had sex with her behind Erica's back.

I fucked 3 bitches and had my dick sucked by a few others but none of them was topping Erica. Ever since I cheated on her for the first time I knew from that moment then and there she was starting to have trust issues with me. Only thing that happened at the penthouse party was me and the stripper never fucked. She only gave me head and I fingered her and ate her pussy but other than that I never fucked her. I didn't know how I was gonna officially explain everything to her since she moved to Atlanta and told me to come down there to talk to her.

I fucked up bad and I didn't even know if I was actually gonna get her back after this. I treated her bad from the moment I met her and she didn't deserve that..at all. It felt like a heavy ass weight of guilt on me and I couldn't shake that shit off. Whenever I was with another girl I wasn't even thinkin about Erica in that moment but as soon as I came back to my senses it was too late for me to say no to what happened with the other girls. But what really pissed me off is that she got back at me with bloodie.

My best friend.

Even though I really can't be mad at all because I cheated first but it was the fact that she chose bloodie out of all my homeboys. I wanna talk to her and tell her I'm sorry. I wanna tell her I miss her sooo bad but I know she ain't gon do shit but just hang up in my face. I don't wanna continue to be the reason she's hurting and broken inside. I wanna be the reason she smiles, laugh, and I wanna be there for her for real this time. I'm planning around Christmas I can hopefully take her on an apology trip to Paris since she always telling me she always wanted to go there. I wanna show her I can love her better than anyone else.

Nobody is this crazy ass world can hold me down like she can. Ain't no other bitch toppin her and even she knows that. She knows she the baddest bitch to ever walk this earth. I wanna tell her I'm sorry so bad but the way I fucked up too many times I don't think she gon let me tell her that. If I send her a text she just gonna leave me on read. If I send her flowers she just gonna throw them away. My fuckin chest hurted so bad seeing her posted up with another nigga.