Shadows Of Desires (Obsession Series #1)

Chapter 6 [Mayank]

I was halfway through to my apartment, when I received Ranya's call.

"What you did was not appropriate today Ranya." I said the first sentence after picking up.

"Bhaiya please come back. Prisha Di is not opening her bedroom door. Pleasee." Ranya said between her sobs.

"What what happened? Ranya, talk to me." I said instantly taking an u-turn. My heart plummeted as I spun the car around, driving so fast that I was certain I'd get a speeding ticket. But that didn't matter. I needed to be there, now. 

The elevator in her building was painfully slow, so I took the stairs two at a time, my breath coming in ragged gasps by the time I reached the apartment. The scene that greeted me only deepened my anxiety. Saachi, Akshat, and Ranya were huddled by Prisha's door, trying desperately to get her to open it. Aakhya stood off to the side, frantically dialing numbers on her phone.

"What happened?" I asked, still catching my breath.

"She just won't open the door." Saachi spoke almost tears in her eyes.

"Shouldn't you have broken the door till now?" I asked Akshat with a side eye.

"I tried but she threatened me not to." He said still knocking vigorously on the door.

"Found it, but everyone listen here." Aakhya said and everyone rushed to her.

"Only, Mayank will get in and then we will lock the door." She said and my face went blank.

"Do you want me to get killed? I don't want to right now." I said with a gulp.

"I don't think she will, she is going through everything again. In case you all don't remember that she has PTSD, and it just got triggered again, and only Mayank can calm her down now." She spoke rapidly.

"Got it." I said, I have read about those.

"In 3, 2, 1." She unlocked the door, they pushed me in and damn, locked again.

"Prisha? Are you okay?" I asked slowly approaching her. She looked up, and the sight nearly shattered me. Her eyes were swollen from crying, her lips trembling as if she wanted to speak but couldn't find the words. It was like all the pain she had ever felt was etched onto her face.

"Oh baby." I said and immediately hugged her, kneeling down in front of her, and she immediately wrapped her arms around my necks, her breathes hitting my collar bones.

"I hate you, I hate you, I hate you." She was whispering against me, and I wouldn't blame her honestly.

"I know baby." I said, and felt my own voice cracking, holding her like this. I am one shameless asshole if I ever dream of getting her back after all the damage and pain I have caused her. 

"Why didn't you contact me? Why did you just leave? was I no one to you?" She asked, sobbing so hard, her nose had gotten red.

"You are the most important one for me, that's why I was not able to contact. I felt like I had let you down, I don't deserve you Pri. I am really really sorry." My voice was barely a whisper as I clutched her to my chest, willing her to feel the sincerity in my words.

"I don't want to see you Mayank, please leave once again, because if you stay this time, I won't be able to bear to see you leave, hence leave before I give you the power to break me again, because I will one day, and I don't wanna regret it." She said with tear stricken eyes looking up to me and her words hit me like a freight train, each one more crushing than the last. I couldn't breathe, couldn't think. The pain in her voice was a reflection of the torment I had caused her.

"Please, go away," she whispered before pulling the blanket over her head, curling up into a ball. My eyes scanned the room, and that's when I noticed it—pictures, letters, post-it notes, all from our past. She had kept everything, every memento of what we once had. The realization broke me.I reached for three pictures, shoving them into my pocket before I could think better of it. I needed something to hold on to, something to remind me of what I had lost.

"How is she?" Saachi asked first thing seeing me.

"Fell asleep." I managed to say, though my voice thick with unspoken emotions.

"And how are you?" Aakhya asked.

"I don't think I will ever get better, but tell Prisha that she won't see me again, if that's what she wishes. I will send all the documentation and deal with things through you, Akshat." I said to him, and he gave me a respectable nod.

"Bhaiya are you okay?" Ranya asked holding my hand.

"I need to leave, Ranya." I said slowly removing my hand from her grip and straight out of the door. I might have cried if stayed a second too longer. I never in my million dreams thought that I never imagined I'd see Prisha like this. 

This was exactly why I left and never contacted her. I couldn't bear for her to see me as I was—desperate, crying, broken while in rehab. But in trying to protect her, I ended up hurting her in ways I never imagined. I couldn't do that to her, but I guess I hurt her far more badly than I though that I shouldn't.

I pinned those photographs that I stole from her box onto my fridge door, seeing her laugh like that in those polaroids flooded me with memories of our high school and the last string broke. I didn't know how much I cried last night, but I woke from my alarm this morning, in the kitchen crouched on the floor. 

I vow to never come infront of you Prisha, if that what you wish for. But, I will also never stop loving you, because I can't. I am just not capable of stop myself from loving you Pri. No matter how much time passed, no matter how much distance grew between us, my love for her would remain. I just hoped it was enough to keep me going, even if it meant living in a world without her.

I think I need to start scheduling my chapters now, because I am such a messed up person with my scheduleee. So sooo sorryyyy for not updating yesterday, it totally slipped my mind amidst everything else. Butthankkk youuuu soooo much for reading this chapter, do drop a lots of comments and like and voteeeeee, love you all a tonnnnnn, stay safe and stay happppyyyyyyyy.