Smakaleng

Chapter 8

Six months later...

think these things of our fathers being gangsters or gang leaders has caused us many things. First it was that idiot whom sold to my handsome man who values and respects me, I would thank him but he doesn't deserve it. Now I lost my first sign of fertility because people want to get to my father or my father-in-law. I honestly hate this life, why should I have to suffer when I didn't even ask to be born. I'm really sorry my friend but right now you can't keep on blaming other people, yes they are at fault but we need think of how we going to tell Khanya that his first child is no more? Khanya didn't even I was pregnant though he had his suspicions but I brushed him off. I don't think I wanna tell him it will break him to the core because all he's been talking about is having a baby.

" If I didn't know any better I'd say kunomuntu osengene esibayeni sakwaNjomane ( There's someone who has entered the Njomane kraal)but because I know you, I know you're overthinking. Talk to me mama wabantwana bami( mother of my kids)"

I'm disturbed from trail of thought by Khanya sitting next to me.  Are you telling him or not? Can you just let me think or rather come up with solutions dear brain because right now you're being useless

" Mama yeka ukukhuluma nobuchopho bakho ungitshele ukuthi yini ekuhluphayo(Stop speaking to your brain and tell me what's bothering you)"  He says making me staddle him. Why is he looking at me in the eyes now he'll know when I'm lying or not.

" 3 months ago when we first had sex something bad happened... well it is good but now it has turned into bad"
He has a frown on his face that speaks volume that I should continue.

" I was pregnant..."

"Why uthi( are you saying)was ?What happened get straight to the point mkami " okay now I regret telling him.

" I had a miscarriage when I was kidnapped by the Don you saved me from" He wiped my tears which I didn't realize that they had come out. His eyes  are bloodshot red it's only a matter of time till he breaks down.

So what happened was after date with Kega, myself and Khanya started being sexually active. Our first session got me pregnant and I only found out 3 months later. The day I found out I was kidnapped by some Mexican gang and they said they want to get to my dad and father in law to do business with them. There was this lady whom had suspicions that I was pregnant and they made take a pregnancy test that came out positive. They then proceeded to make drink sometimes inject me with drugs to kill my baby. When they were satisfied they shot me in the womb and that was the last straw for my baby. Khanya was able to save me, yes but the damage was already done. I was rushed to the hospital and indeed I had lost a child but gained an angel.

" I'm sorry for not coming earlier. I'm so sorry..." he's having s breakdown and it hurts so bad. I also started crying.

"Bayozisola ngosuku abake bangiwela ngalo. Sekuyisikhathi sokubakhombisa ukuthi ngingubani.(They will regret the day the day they ever crossed me. It's time to show them who i am.)"