Olive's Little Thoughts

four

Today was the first day of school, Monday. I got up at six thirty. I walked into the bathroom getting my usual routine done. I walked into my room and did my makeup. Just the usual, some concealer, blush, mascara and minimal brown eyeliner. I wore some warm leggings and a folded green skirt. I put on a big black sweater that matched my leggings. I walked downstairs grabbing a jelly drink and putting it into my bag and getting dressed to head outside. I put my wired earphones in my ears and headed to the bus stop. The bus was almost about to come as I heard someone running towards the bus stop, clearly being late. It was Noah. I took my earphones out and put them into my pocket along with my phone.

"Hi Olive!" He said with a wide smile looking at me breathing heavily

"Oh hello" I smiled as I saw the bus approaching "You late often?" I chuckled

"Uhh I mean not really my mom just took ages to pack my lunch" He chuckled too 

"Oh, that's kind of her she wakes up so early to pack your lunch" I said smiling softly

"Yeah I guess it is after all" He said and we both got into the bus sitting next to each other. 

"Are you excited?" I asked him

"Not really to be honest, but I don't mind getting used to seeing you every morning on the bus stop though" he grinned and a cheeky smile appeared on his face.

"Oh" I said grinning back at him.

We stayed quiet for the rest of the ride getting off the bus. He helped me find my classroom and we said our goodbyes. 

I sat close to the last desk, maybe two of the ahead of it. Next to the window. I hope a normal person sits next to me. As the minutes passed by the class was slowly becoming full. Nobody sat next to me yet. But as it was about to ring a girl rushed inside looking around for an empty seat until she made her way toward me.

"Sup, mind if I join ya here?" She asked already sitting down, her breaths were a little more heavy, she probably rushed here.

"Uh, sure I don't mind" I said giving her a soft smile.

"I'm Wendy, you?" She asked me with a soft smile on her face. I couldn't tell if she meant her smile, she definitely did a great job hiding her real self if this wasn't it.

"I'm Olive, nice to meet you" i said smiling back.

Soon after, the teacher came in. She told us some starting information. Nothing very interesting. We then all went outside to the school gym. The head master had a short speech and then we went away. That was all for my first day of school. Nothing fun, nothing surprising and I am definitely not happy about having to get back into the schedule I have always hated so much. I walked to the bus stop sort of searching for Noah. A few minutes later he ran to the bus stop. Funny how everyone I've talked to today was out of breath.

"Hi Olive!" Noah said happily as he stood by my side.

"Hey, you had a great day?" i asked him putting a forced smile on my face. Even though I didn't feel like smiling. I don't want to make him worry about me. He seems pretty happy to me.

"Yea well the usual nothing special you know, it's not like I went to meet new people like you did. How were you?" He said. He didn't seem that happy anymore, I suppose he doesn't have many friends then.

"I was normal, not great but not bad." I said slowly starting to hate myself for saying that, why couldn't I think of a better response. He probably thinks I don't want to talk to him or something. Perfect.

We then both got on the bus. He made me talk about meeting Wendy and more things. He made me feel like someone would actually care about how my day went. I still couldn't quite believe him that he cared. 

" Well I made a new friend, Wendy." I finally got out of me, happy that I said at least something.

"Oh that's nice isn't it? You finally have someone in your class eh?" Noah said with a small smile on his face.

"I guess so." I said and we then went home from the bus stop.

I closed the main door behind me and took my shoes and coat off, i ran upstairs and layed on my bed. I sometimes hate socialising so much. It drains me.

After a while of resting I sat to my table and I started painting my nails, I chose dark red, i love dark red. It's so much more amazing than just normal red, I hate that one, It's like if they were cousins. I wonder if me and Wendy ever get closer, and me and Noah.

My mom then knocked on my door, she opened it without even asking if she can come in, she peeped her head in, frowned and turned back around. She usually does this, she's looking for dad, she's probably drunk, that's the only time she's willing to talk to him about serious things, not about what he wants for dinner or if he's got work next week. She walked away and closed the door behind her again. My life is pretty boring these days. It feels like it's the same thing repeating itself everyday.

I got up and took my books from my backpack, some pens and started to sing my books, for school, the first homework we've got, seems pretty stupid to me. I walked down and grabbed a glass of  orange juice, I finished drinking it and put the empty glass into the dishwasher, it was empty, seems like my mom hasn't eaten or anything. I walked back upstairs to my room again and fell asleep, great.

I woke up the next morning and did the same routine a did yesterday, got dressed, brushed my teeth, did my hair and  makeup and soon I was standing on the bus stop again.

"Hi Olive!" I heard a familiar voice not far away from me.

"Hey Noah" I said and made myself smile softly.

We got on the bus and then walked over to school. He said bye and I said it back, we then headed to our classes. I sat down and opened my book.

Wendy came soon so we talked a bit, she seems like a nice person, she makes me smile, not many people can do that. I guess that's sort of broken in my, I can't seem to smile like normal people would, I don't laugh at little things, but with her I do, she matches my energy. We don't really talk to anyone else, when they say we should get in pairs we just go together, nobody else there to ruin our bond. Today we had English, we arfe separated into groups, I'm not with Wendy in my group, I just don't really talk to anyone there, If they tell us to get in pairs I just end up with the weird kids that nobody talks to. It's fine though, it's just a class.

Wendy on the other hand made a new friend in her group, she sometimes hangs out with us on break but most of the time she's with her main friends, I don't like her, but I can't make Wendy cut her off, can I?