Almost A Diary

No one knows what it's like you and me

I miss you , I'm not gonna lie .
I miss you like hell and it's killing me not being able to run to you and hug you so tight you won't be able to breathe or move .
We had everything , everything to be happy , to go right and to be together but we still acted like nothing was happening and were selfish to the point where none of us would even make it work , why did we acted like this?We had the world in our hands but we still dropped it , we have been avoiding our feelings and that's what's destroying us inside we just are to stubborn to admit it .
I wanna hate you for all the hurt and agonising pain you've put me through but I can't , I wanna hurt you so bad just so you see what you caused on me but I just can't and you wanna know why? Because I at least know how to care for someone and how to treat the person I love properly , because I care for your feelings more than I do for mine and because I'm not a stubborn bitch like you .
You don't really know how much it hurt watching you holding hands with her do you? I tried to avoid it but every time I did it you were right there in front of me doing it .
You don't need to do this to me .
You don't need to hurt me this way for me to realise what I've lost or what we lost because even though all of this , we both know and we both wish that it would've been us and not you two or me and him .
I love you and I'm not gonna deny it , I also know that you have feelings for me too so why all of this when we could perfectly be together?

"What happened to us?
This cruelty and this hatred , how did it find us?
When did we lose our way?
Does this darkness have a name? Is it your name?"