**Kirsty’s Perspective**
Days turn into weeks, and the weight of living Andrea’s life starts to press down on me with an intensity I never imagined. What once felt like a dream come true is now a relentless struggle to maintain a facade that’s slowly cracking. I’ve managed to get through another recording session, but just barely. Peter seemed satisfied with my performance, but I could tell he wasn’t thrilled. And neither was I.
But today, something feels different. As I head to another event—some charity gala that Andrea’s supposed to attend—I can’t shake the feeling that something’s about to give. The paparazzi are out in full force, their cameras flashing as I step out of the car. I force a smile and wave, just as I’ve seen Andrea do a thousand times in videos. But inside, I’m a mess.
The gala is everything I’ve come to expect from Andrea’s world: glitz, glamour, and endless schmoozing. I make my way through the crowd, exchanging pleasantries with people whose names I barely remember. I’m on autopilot, my mind racing as I try to keep up appearances.
Then, out of nowhere, I hear a voice behind me—a voice that sends a chill down my spine.
“Andrea! There you are!”
I turn to see a man I recognize from Andrea’s social media posts. It’s Evan, her ex-boyfriend. Tall, handsome, and exuding confidence, he strides over with a charming smile that makes my stomach twist.
“Evan,” I say, trying to keep my voice steady. “I didn’t expect to see you here.”
“Neither did I,” he replies, his tone casual but with an edge of something I can’t quite place. “But when I heard you’d be here, I thought it’d be a good opportunity to catch up.”
Catch up? I have no idea what their relationship is like now—whether they’re on good terms or if there’s still tension. All I know is that the last thing I need is to navigate a conversation with Andrea’s ex.
“Sure,” I say, forcing another smile. “What have you been up to?”
Evan’s eyes narrow slightly, like he’s studying me. “You know, the usual. Work’s been crazy, but I’ve been thinking a lot about us lately.”
Us. The word hangs in the air between us, heavy with implications I can’t begin to unpack. My heart races as I try to figure out how to respond. Does Andrea still have feelings for him? Does he have feelings for her? I’m completely out of my depth.
“That’s… interesting,” I manage to say, hoping it’s a safe response.
Evan frowns, and I can tell he’s not buying it. “Andrea, are you okay? You seem a little… off tonight.”
I freeze, my mind blank. He’s onto me. He can sense that something’s wrong, that I’m not who he thinks I am. I swallow hard, trying to find a way out of this.
“I’m just tired,” I say quickly. “It’s been a long day, and I’ve got a lot on my mind.”
Evan studies me for a moment longer, then nods slowly. “I get it. But you know you can talk to me, right? About anything.”
I nod, feeling the walls closing in around me. “Thanks, Evan. I appreciate that.”
He gives me a small smile, but it doesn’t reach his eyes. “Let’s catch up later, okay?”
“Yeah, sure,” I say, relieved when he finally walks away.
I exhale shakily, feeling like I’ve just dodged a bullet. But the encounter leaves me rattled. How many more close calls can I handle before someone figures out the truth? And what happens when they do?
I spend the rest of the night on edge, avoiding Evan and anyone else who might see through my act. By the time I finally leave the gala, I’m exhausted, both physically and emotionally. I collapse onto my bed when I get home, my mind racing with doubts.
How much longer can I keep this up? How long before I slip up and everything comes crashing down?
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**Andrea’s Perspective**
In Kirsty’s world, the challenges are different but no less daunting. I’m starting to settle into a routine, but it’s a routine that’s foreign to me. School, homework, and trying to fit in with Kirsty’s friends—it’s all so different from the life I’m used to.
Today, I’m at Kirsty’s art class, trying to figure out how to navigate this part of her life. The art supplies scattered around the room feel alien to me, like I’m holding someone else’s tools. I’ve never been much of an artist, but Kirsty clearly is. The pressure to live up to her talent is overwhelming.
The teacher, Mrs. Reynolds, is walking around the room, offering feedback to each student. When she reaches my desk, she pauses, looking at the blank canvas in front of me.
“Kirsty, is everything okay?” she asks gently. “You’ve been quiet lately. Your work isn’t like it used to be.”
I swallow hard, trying to come up with an excuse. “I’m just… not feeling very inspired right now.”
Mrs. Reynolds nods, her expression sympathetic. “It happens to the best of us. But remember, art is about expressing yourself, even when it’s hard. Sometimes the best work comes from pushing through the blocks.”
I nod, feeling a pang of guilt. This isn’t my art. These aren’t my struggles. But I’m the one who has to live with them now.
After class, I linger behind, trying to make sense of everything. I pick up a paintbrush and stare at the blank canvas, willing myself to create something—anything—that would make Kirsty proud. But nothing comes. The canvas remains blank, mocking me.
As I pack up my things, I hear footsteps behind me. I turn to see Amy standing there, a concerned look on her face.
“Hey, Kirsty,” she says softly. “I noticed you were a little off today. Do you want to talk about it?”
I shake my head, not trusting myself to speak. The truth is, I don’t even know what’s wrong. I just feel lost, like I’m drifting in a sea of expectations that aren’t mine to meet.
Amy sits down next to me, her presence comforting in a way I didn’t expect. “You know, it’s okay to not have it all figured out. You don’t always have to be perfect.”
Her words hit me harder than I expected. In Andrea’s world, perfection is everything. There’s no room for mistakes, no space to let your guard down. But here, in Kirsty’s world, there’s a softness, a kindness that I’m not used to.
“Thanks, Amy,” I say quietly. “I just… I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.”
Amy smiles gently. “None of us do, really. We’re all just figuring it out as we go.”
I nod, feeling a weight lift off my shoulders, if only slightly. For the first time since the switch, I feel like maybe I don’t have to have all the answers. Maybe it’s okay to just be where I am, even if I’m not sure where that is.
As we leave the classroom together, I realize that the more I try to be Kirsty, the more I’m losing sight of who I am. But in the process, I’m also learning things about myself that I never knew. Maybe that’s the point of all this—to discover something new, something deeper, even if it means getting a little lost along the way.
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Adventure17 year old Andrea Willows had just won her 3rd grammy and was getting bored with her life. As she wished to live a normal life, Kirsty Cameron, a girl with a normal life, also wished for a life of popularity and riches. Their wishes get granted and...