To wish Upon a Star

Chapter four

Two months has gone by since your relationship with Atsumu ended. It's been weird, but you've gotten used to referring to him as your ex instead of your boyfriend. It still doesn't feel right though.

After the first week had gone by, you finally caved and listened to Yachi's advice to block Atsumu on everything. She was right, that was the first step to being okay.

You haven't seen Atsumu around campus since that day, you can admit that after a few days since your break up, you purposefully went to spots you knew he liked. Maybe it was the world telling you to leave it be, but he was never there. You were surprised, he left quicker than you thought he would.

You haven't moved on yet, of course not. You're not sure when you will, or if you will, but at least you can focus on other things now.

You haven't heard anything about Atsumu since, except for Osamu reaching out to apologize for his brother and wish you the best. Osamu was always a sweetheart. Surprisingly, some of Atsumu's friends messaged you too.

You certainly weren't expecting to wake up to apologies and well wishes from two of his friends, Hinata and Bokuto, only a day after your break up. You found it sweet though, so you didn't mind.

Almost three months have gone by, and you feel so much better. You don't talk about him anymore, you've blocked him, and no one around you speaks of him. Sleep has started to come easier as well.

'Maybe I was just stressed. He always said that.'  You mentally scold yourself as you catch yourself thinking of him. Even thought it's gotten easier, your stupid mind still sometimes ponders about him, still thinks and reminds you of him. Even when you don't want it to.

Besides the troublesome thoughts of him that always seem to escape even after locking them away, you could say you were doing okay.

That was, until, Yachi rushes into your shared room.

"Y/N! Y/NNN!" She runs in, panting to catch her breath.

Your head snaps to the source of the noise. "What?! What's wrong are you okay?!"

"It's Atsumu! I found his song trending!" She frantically runs to hand you her phone.

"What?!"

"Just look look!"

You take her phone, playing the video.

"No excuse
Sent my love away and now I'm so confused
Tried so hard to leave, and now I wanna get back
I wanna getcha back
Wanna come to you"

The video wasn't important, just some girl showing her vacation pictures. You could only focus on his voice, on what he was saying.

You just stared at the phone, zoning out. You thought things were getting better for you, that you finally stopped thinking about him every day. But now he has to come out with some bullshit song? That's obviously about you? You hated this. Every bit of it made you feel sick.

Not wanting to hear his voice any longer, you shut the phone off and hand it back to Yachi.

"Y/N, are you okay?" She worriedly asks, swiftly wrapping her arms around you in a hug.

You stay quiet, leaning into her embrace.

"Hitoka," You quietly say.

"Yeah?"

"Can you not ever play his song around me again? Please?"

She hugs you tighter. "Of course, why would you even ask that? I already blocked him on everything stupid.." She says, her voice slightly cracking.