Sunday 'Sunny' Santos
I should have known better, but despite myself I had hoped Max would say something, anything to change my mind.. But he'd done very nearly nothing to convince me that I wasn't completely alone in my feelings..
Of course I am!
How could I have forgotten being traded like livestock?
I need to remember that I am here for one reason, and it isn't love.. I'm here so this tiny, innocent life within me can have a better life than the one my father gave me.. I'm here for a chance at happiness and independence and freedom..Besides, why would a man, who could have any woman he chooses, pick me? A low rent girl from the streets, with no prospects, no education, no family, pregnant with another man's baby and penniless.. I'm hardly a catch, and beyond his need for an obedient wife who would help him carry out his mysterious plans, there is so little I have to offer.
It's no wonder he isn't interested, and I can't blame him..
I've been kidding myself with a pipe dream of possibility, a dream of happily ever after that would never be my destiny, and now I am dragged back down to the pathetic reality that Max doesn't like me back.. At least, not the way I like him..
There must be something wrong with me, that I would be drawn to the darkness in men, time and time again, my heart never learns its lesson, leading me to an inevitable destruction..
It's enough to bring a prickle of sadness to my eyes... Or perhaps that's just the pregnancy hormones, once again leading me astray.."We're going out tonight, Zakya.." Max stops me, just as I reach the gym door.. Blinking back the threat of tears, I stand with my back to him to hide my fragility..
I don't want him to see, to know my pain.. He doesn't owe me a chance.. He doesn't owe me anything..
He'd asked me to stay and I'd agreed..
Still, something is wrong.. I can feel it in my instincts, radiating from my solar plexus to spread throughout my body.. A stress response warning me to tread lightly..
Max has been acting strange lately, avoiding me at every opportunity, and I have no idea why..
I'm not even sure I want to find out, because any more bad news wold only hurt more..Which is why I couldn't be more surprised by his proposition.. "¿Neta?" (really) The flutter of excitement that stirs in my stomach betrays me.. I can't help but think of the last date I'd been taken on.. Javier had promised me a celebratory dinner and instead he brought me to Na Pont to trade me to a Loan Shark.. Not exactly the most romantic of evenings.. "Where are we going?"
A little voice in the back of my mind frets..
If Javier could dump me so easily, could Max do the same?Just the very thought of it is a dagger of ice to my heart.. A new kind of ache I've never known before, and even though I had just told him I wanted to be friends, I can't help but hold out hope that some part of him might see me as something more than a poor broken doll, an illegal, a whore.. Or whatever else I have been branded as in the past..
YOU ARE READING
PURPLE HEART - Soliders Of Fortune [BOOK TWO]
RomanceSunday Santos lives by one rule in life; Keep your head down and your mouth shut. Sunny knows how to survive the mean city streets and the predators that walk them, after all she was raised in the cold and unforgiving ganglands. But after her pimp...