The Place Before the Darkness.JJK [m]

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"Can I call you back?" You ask through the phone but actually don't wait for any answer and just hang up

You were searching some documents for the assurance in your husband's office when you found it. A phone. At first, you tried to look for some rational explanations of why your husband would hide a phone in his desk. It could be an old devise but you have never seen it before. Moreover, it's quite a recent phone. So, your next thought was that it could be a professional phone. And you wished it was. But it wasn't.

The latest text, from yesterday, was an address. A hotel address. It was an appointment for tomorrow. Your heart sunk as you went through the convo: over and over again, the same hotel room with different dates and hours. For four months.

So this is it. Your husband is cheating on you. You can't stop your crying because the pain in your chest is just unbearable. You have to open the window because you can't breathe, your lungs seem too small all of the sudden. You thought that Jungkook was the love of your life when you married him three years ago. And even now, with your broken heart, you still believe he is. You haven't thought about living without him, it can't be possible.

When you hear the front door and your husband asking if you're home, your sobbing gets lourder and you have to put your hand on your mouth to mutter it. The steps you know so well — just like you thought you knew your husband so well — are getting closer and closer. Jungkook calls you again but doesn't receive any answer. He heads to your bedroom but finds it empty. He frowns, growing worried because he knows you should be home. Then, he hears some fainted noises coming from the corridor. He concentrates and spots that the noises are located in his office. When he pushed the door, he didn't think he would find you crying in his leather chair. The biggest tears he has seen since he knows you.

"What's going on"' He hastily asks you, panicked that you might be hurt

And you are indeed. You are feeling so much pain that you wonder how your heart hasn't stop beating of how squeezed it has become.

"I can't believe it..." You whisper, more to yourself than to him

Once again, your husband frowns but only a second. Because his big does eyes widen at the sight of his secret device in your shaky hand. All his blood is drained from his face, making his skin look pale. He gulps but his throat feels as dry as a desert.

"I can explain" He starts but his voice is already broken

Why do his words hurt even more? They sound so much like what you have witnessed in movies. You close your eyes in a ridiculous attempt to prevent the hurricane from happening but it's already too late. It's four months too late.

"Y/N, I swear, it's not what you think" Jungkook beseeches as he steps closer but you hold your hand up to stop him

"So you don't go to those rendezvous in that hotel?" You ask

Your voice has some hope in it, like you still think there is a tiny chance that your husband is not cheating on you. But a single glance at him and at his guilty face is enough to definitely break this hope. How can you know him this much and not at all at the same time?

Your crying breaks the heavy silence around you. Every single tear is killing Jungkook. He doesn't know what to do but he absolutely hates seeing you suffer. And he hates even more being the reason of it. He feels all your pain like his own. He feels your heart breaking in his own chest. Three years ago, at your wedding, he promised you to punish all the persons who would hurt you. Today, he might have to punish himself.

"Please, believe me, I'm not cheating on you" He begs

He wishes you'd look him in the eyes so you could see how much he loves you but you can't. You can't look at him without feeling like dying. Your soul is being torn apart so roughly — mainly because you haven't imagined that Jungkook would ever do that. Your husband is perfect. When you talk with your friends and tell them about the flowers he bought you, or the restaurant he took you just because you said that you saw an ad on social medias, they always envy you to have such a caring and loving husband. When your friends cry about being cheated on, you always tell yourself that you're lucky that you won't ever live that.

And here you are.

"So what are those messages, Jungkook? Who asks you to meet at the hotel?!" You ask and yell and cry at the same time

You are confused, angry and sad. You don't know what to think and Jungkook either. He doesn't say anything that it's driving you crazy. Why doesn't he deny? Why doesn't he say that all those texts are a misdial? Why doesn't he tell you he loves you?

Every second of silence takes away a piece of your broken heart.

"I'm sorry..." Jungkook finally says

It's the worst thing he could say. Because now it's real. It's too much real. Someway, you wish he has lied, denied anything and told you that you misread the situation. Maybe you could have gone on with your life. But he said he's sorry. So everything is true. Now, you can't hold on an irrational explanation because it's fucking true!

You run pass though him and it hurts a little more that Jungkook doesn't even try to stop you. You leave your house like you wish you could leave the pain behind.

You spend the night at your friend's. You try to cry yourself to sleep but you can't. The pain in your chest keeps you up all night and it gets worse every time you imagine your husband and an unknown woman in this hotel room. Aren't you enough? Did you change? Did you get boring? You didn't even see the signs, Jungkook seemed as happy as ever. Your sex life didn't decrease so you wonder if it has ever been enough for your husband. You try to look at the past four months and spot out the little changes but everything was the same! Maybe even better. Jungkook is such a great actor because you would have never imagined he would have a double life.