The Place Before the Darkness.JJK [m]

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You stare at the ceiling of your friend's guest room. You want to empty your mind but your heart is too painful to ignore and it reminds you of Jungkook. Ever since you have met him, he has filled your soul, brain and heart. It's just impossible not to. But right now, you wish you could just forget everything, especially the day you saw him for the first time, four years ago.

You did spend the night crying but you also thought. Maybe your marriage is not over. Maybe there is still hope. You could forgive Jungkook. You could if it means you'll get to be with him. You'll talk about it, he'll promise to not see her ever again and you'll push this painful episode aside so you can follow up with your life together as before.

But before that, you have to make sure that Jungkook won't attend his date today. You saw on the phone yesterday that he was expected at six pm in the same hotel. He is not stupid enough to go after that his wife found out about his affair, right? If he loves you, and he does, he won't go. Right?

But if he does go, then it means there is no hope left. It's all over. And you're not sure you'll survive it.

So you don't really know why you're in the hotel lobby. You keep telling yourself that Jungkook loves you and that you trust him but you're still here. You have never been more stressed in all your 28 year-old life. You look at your watch every ten seconds. You almost sigh in relief when 6:01 is written on your wrist, like you find yourself so damn stupid to have thought that Jungkook would show up.

But he does. As he walks toward the elevator, looking as good as ever in his black suit, he tramples on your poor heart at each step. He enters the elevator and disappears behind the metallic doors. It's all over. Jungkook is flying away with your heart, your love, your soul and pretty much your whole life. It's so painful that you feel empty. It's a dull ache in your whole body and there is nothing you can do about it. Your husband didn't chose you while you would have chosen him a hundred times.

Your body moves automatically as you are heading to the bar of the hotel. You hate that he has chosen such a luxury hotel to cheat on you. Does she deserve all this? You hate her. You hate him. You hate how he hurt you. But mostly, you hate that you don't hate him. Even after breaking your heart, you still love him.

When the bartender hands you your order, you scoff. You didn't even realized that you ordered a wapplesky, a apple and whiskey cocktail, your husband's favorite. Your eyes water when you take your first sip and you wish you could blame it on the bitterness of the alcohol.

You feel the presence of a man next to you. At first, you thought it was Jungkook because of the black suit the man is wearing. But it's not him. However, the man is really, really handsome. His brown hair matches his brown eyes. His nose is straight and flawless. And you can tell he is muscular underneath his clothes. Yes, he looks really good but you can't help comparing him with Jungkook and he doesn't stand a chance. Will you think that about all the men you'll meet? If so, maybe you won't ever be able to love again.

You swallow the rest of your glass and the stranger takes the opportunity to talk to you, or to flirt with you actually.

"Can I get you another one?" His voice is charming, soft and deep

You do appreciate how soothing it is. But should you accept the offer? Well, Jungkook is probably fucking another woman right now so...

"Yes, thank you" You try to sound cheerful

"Jackson, by the way" The man introduces himself and you do the same

You both start talking and oddly enough, you don't feel as bad as before. Maybe your pride gets a little restored at the thought of flirting with the another man when your husband has been cheating on you for four months.