FRAGMENTS (lesbianstory)

Chapter 43

Deanna's POV

"what do you mean? You didn't kill her do you? Your not a serial killer right? I joked

"I almost killed her Deanna, I tore her heart and I broke it. I hate myself about that and since then day by day I regret that happened to her, I love her so much but I betrayed her.

And now she no longer loves me. She loves someone else. If I could turn back the time I will, If I'm given a chance to choose between her and everything I have, I will chose her, I would rather have nothing just to be with her than having everything without her. I love her so much Deanna.

I really do, I know I've messed up, my insecurities swallowed me! I doubt her love and now she's gone! My love is gone! It hurts so much Deanna. Please I just want her back. She said between her sobs.

I clench my chest it hurts to see her like that. Though she admits it's her fault but seeing her in that state make my heart ache. I stand up and walk closer to her and wrap my arms around her.

"Shhh. It's okay Heather, stop crying. I said while caressing her back, a few drops of tears escape from my eyes and I immediately wipe it.

"No! you don't understand she left me, she doesn't love me anymore. She said still crying.

"Heather, you need to move on. You need to find someone else. If she doesn't love you anymore set her free.

"No! I can't Deanna, I Can't.

"Okay. Okay.   I'm still hugging her.

After couple of minute she calm down.

"I'm sorry for my outburst Deanna.

"It's okay. I know you love her so much and you're hurting. But you need to move on for your own sake. You told me she has someone now, you deserved to be happy.

I'm here. I can make you happy. What! no! Deanna stop.!

"I can't Deanna, I will always love her and only her no one can replace her in my heart. I'll be content by her side if not as a lover then a friend will do. Even if she forgets about me I will never forget all the happy moments we've shared. She's my life, my forever my other half.

Hearing it from her makes my heart hurt, so whatever I say to her at the end she will always chose her ex, she must love her so much.

"Okay, if that's what you want but I hope someday you'll be happy.

We stared at each other, time seemingly stopped again. she's leaning towards me and I'm not backing out, like I've always been ready for what will happen next and within a second her lips touch mine again.

her soft lips moving slowly like I'm a fragile object.

When I felt her hands bringing me closer to her I push her and it startled her.

"stop. We can't anymore. I said

"Why? She asked

Like hell why? I need to stop this I've done enough to make Anna suffer I can't hurt her anymore.

I stand up and move away from her.

"Why? You mean why? Heather I have a partner who I love I can't just hurt her anymore I've been cheated on before and I know how it feels. I hurt my partner enough. Whenever I'm with you I do things that I shouldn't!!!

"Don't fight with your feelings Deanna! Heather said.

"Don't fight my feelings? Heather I don't have feelings for you!

Yeah. Lie to yourself.

"I know you're scared but I'm here. I know you felt it too the first time we've kiss at the party and now.