that winter (billford)

talks and a date? 💘 (5)

after an hour of pure overthinking and not talking to blondie or should I say bill I finally decided to walk out of my room to eat since I abandoned my dinner early...

as soon as I entered the kitchen I saw the source of all my problems and immediately avoided him and went straight to the fridge and grabbed whatever I could find as quickly as I could

-"are you seriously gonna act like an angry child and avoid what could easily be a simple 3 minute talk?" bill said nonchalantly and bored and then rolled his eyes

I just groaned and rolled my eyes too "let's talk then... what do you have to say cipher?" I sit at the table and gestured for him to sit too so we could talk it out

"i think we both know you're being unreasonable and letting your feelings get the the best of you which is not like you at all but that's not the point of the conversation..." he took a breath to think about what else to say "and who cares that I'm bill fucking cipher?! that doesn't change anything! it was all true, and I can't bear seeing you like this and feeling like I destroyed you again..." I saw a tear roll from bill's eyes and immediately knew he was serious about all this

-"listen, i..." I was lacking the words to say anything but still tried "my problem is that I love you I always did..." bill's shock was very noticeable "what in the-" the words softly rolled off his tongue "it's just... you know I feel very strong things about you so it makes me be unreasonable and emotional but... we could try handling the bigger problems and then seeing if this would work out..?" "like... us work out?" he said as a spark of hope clearly lit up his eyes "yeah" I answered in a soft way and reached for his hands across the dinner table, blushing and looking away

a nearly uncomfortable silence was created as we held hands and i smiled as a way to convey a certain assuredness and loveliness to the situation.
I thought to myself that it's gonna be alright anyway so I might as well be with bill while he's not a threat and actually a pretty good company...

after that harsh simple heartfelt and transparent talk and some more conversations throughout the day we were feeling like ourselves again but there was still some heavy atmosphere like if we were still resentful which we were not.

-"hey sixer I was wondering something..." bill barged in my lab while I was reading and at this point it did not even startle me anymore so I just turned around to look at him calmly and curiously "could we eat out tonight? probably pizza" he said smiling cutely "yeah that's a great idea! what were you thinking? just something casual or some romantic date sorta thing?" I said and then immediately realized what I suggested and blushed "why not both? a romantic but chill and casual date! we're not even anything official yet so it matches our vibe"

thinking about it I've always liked how bill tends to get so lovely and happy when he's just with me and that's different from how he usually is which makes me happy too, I didn't take too long staring and reflecting but the room was still silent for a few seconds so I smiled warmly and said:

-"this sounds like a plan, be ready by 8 'kay? I'm sure it's gonna be an amazing dinner with you bill!" i looked at him fondly for a few seconds and noticed him blushing so I giggled and got up from my work desk to hug him

he reciprocated the hug tightly and said softly "it's definitely gonna be a date fordsy!" he smiled like he was totally fine with it so I was cool with it too

after that I got back to work for the remainder of the afternoon enthusiastic about the dinner date later.

a/n: sorry for any mistakes and for the wait lol