She was my girl [jerry cantrell x fem oc]

14: Surprise?

September 1991

"Well yeah. I am sorry for not calling, but we the guys have been working really hard on this. I'm coming up in a few days for the album release, so I'll see you then," Finney hummed through on the other line.

It was the first time she had called me in ages, but she sounded monotone and bored, compared to my pure excitement. I feel I always lacked a relationship with her, as she was always busy doing other things, such a being our mother's favourite or winning academic awards. I thought she would grow out of being productive in adulthood, but it only got worse. I hate to be the naggy little sister dragging people down, but I can't really help it, can I now?

I was thinking of ways to continue this conversation. I wanted to talk to her, I looked up to her in a way.

We don't talk about how I landed her and Laura in hospital multiple times...

"How is Oliver doing? Are you guys still together?"

"Hasn't Laura told you? We broke up a while ago. I'm going out with Dave now," Finney nonchalantly stated, as if the whole world knew.

My mouth was agape. I had no idea Finney would go for someone like Dave. I thought she was sensible. Maybe I don't know her as well as I thought.

"Oh! That's something.." I was surprised, but honestly anything could happen at this point.

I heard feedback on the other end and Finney hurriedly said her farewell and hung up. I was confused and disappointed. I knew Laura went to visit her, but then again, I haven't heard from her in a while either. They always kept secrets from me when we were little. I guess I always did have the disadvantage of being the youngest.

Maybe I just lacked support. Maybe that's why things ended up the way they did.

I checked my watch and sighed, "Maybe some fresh air will do me good"

I collect my lighter, a pack of cigarettes, my compact makeup and tossed them in my bag. Time to put all of those years doing track into use. I grabbed my keys and head for the door, only for it to open, with none other than my sister standing there.

Laura.

She's trying to stop my health kick!

"Well well well. Look who it is! I haven't seen you in awhile," I push aside my worry, I don't want her to think I care. She rolled her eyes and shoved past me with pure aggression, and maybe a hint of something else in there.

I turn around slowly, utterly confused and a little mad.

"What's your problem? I'm supposed to be the angry one!" I grumbled and followed her to my room.

I walk in, to see her sprawled out, face down, on my newly washed sheets. I slowly creep up to the side of my bed and get down to eye level with her. She turns her head to face me, with tears streaming down the sides of her face. My face softened, although I had never seen her like this, she was always there for me when I most needed her.

I grab her astray hand and smile, "What's going on, Laura?"

She tries to push a smile through her tears, "I'm pregnant"

My face turned from sincere, to surprised.

"Not exactly what I was expecting... But is this not a good thing?" I tried to understand the situation, but y'know I haven't really had any experience with this so..

She burst out into more strained tears. "I'm so scared, I don't know if I'm ready for this. I'm still so young!"

I tried to be the rational one, but in reality, I was probably freaking out just as much as her. "Have you told Chris yet?"

Can you imagine me as an aunt? No thank you.

"No... Not yet," She sniffled, "You're the only one who knows."

"Laura..." I caressed her face and wiped her tears, "I'm flattered, but you also need to tell him... It's his right?"

"Annie!" She scowled, "Of course It's his!"

"I'm joking! Sorry..." I chuckled, then composed myself. I wasn't used to being the comforter. "Chris is a great guy. I know he will support you, whatever you choose."

"I always thought you were gonna be the one who ended up pregnant first," She groaned.

I rolled my eyes, "I don't know. I could be, but probably not, hey?"

She gave me a confused stare. "What do you mean Annie?" Laura sat up.

"Have you become a hooker?" She whispered.

See, my sisters have the greatest expectations for me. I love that.

"I'm in a relationship for your information! Sort of.."

Now she was the one who had her mouth hanging. I guess she didn't expect me to ever get boyfriend after Ben, but she probably hasn't heard the saying 'time heals'.

"Who! Who! What do you mean sort of!?" She immediately sat up and her mood completely changed.

I awkwardly smiled, "I told you I'd have to kill you?"

"Annie!"

I sighed and visibly cringed, "Jerry..."

"You're taking the piss, right?" Her tone was sarcastic. "You know he's a player, right?"

I crossed my arms and huffed, "Yeah, but I believe he has stopped that. When was the last time you saw him with a side piece, huh?"

"Fair point.." She put her hand on her chin. "I can't even imagine it. I really thought that if you were to go for anyone, it would be Eddie. He seems pretty fond of you if I'm being honest."

You think I haven't noticed?

"Yeah. I don't think of him in that way. He's more of a friend in my eyes, although sometimes I do feel that I'm pulling him on a string. It's why I've kept this a secret. That and the fact that Jerry is stupid as hell."

"Annie... You continue to surprise me."

"Speak for yourself, soon to be mother."

Laura frowned and shook her head at me. It was back to sibling banter in a matter of minutes.

a/n

GUYS I AM TRYING TO FINISH THIS MARK MY WORDS