World of ash

Two

"Girl, Never ignore me again" The veins on his neck and forehead displayed his anger.

"who do you think you are" His voice gets higher and higher by each word he speaks. "Girl, thinks she can ignore me without consequences"

The flask of beer flies over my head landing on the wall with a loud tud. I flinch and raise my forearms over my head. protecting my face.

I'm then disappointed by myself for showing him i'm afraid. Knowing thats what he wants.

Me afraid of him.

His laughter can be heard then. I raise my head looking at him. knowing that he hates my eyes.

Black like the night sky. The devils eyes the old lady next door comments every time i walk past her house.

He gets in my face then. "You wanna know what you are." He slurs out.

"You nothing more then the daughter of a whore" He sneers at me. My eyes are dead not showing any feelings.

It not the first time he has said that. It's isn't even original.

"You are Nothing" His fist raises and the blow lands right at my cheek. I Fall against the wall, the sticky beer covers the back of my shirt. The next hit lands on the same place. I don't have the strength to stay upright.

Falling down on the ground i curl myself to a fetal position. Both my arms are protecting my head.

He kicks me in the stomach and I wimper from the pain."Nothing more than a curse of existents." He kicks me again.

"Nothing more then a unwanted unloveble child" His kicks is not as strong as usual. But they still hurt and causes damage.

I gritt my teeth not wanting to make more pathetic sounds.

My mind wanders to that silent place back in my mind. Where everything is blurry and black.

It's peacefull there my own little place protecting me from reality.

The pain do not regrister and do not exist.

I lay on the cold ground many hours after he is finished with me. Waiting for my strength to come back.

I pick myself up and with the help of the wall I stumble to my room.

I keep it as clean I can. There isn't much you can do with a house that is falling apart.

I'm so tired and done with this life. Closing my eyes briefly I tread out of my shirt. Same with my pants. Trying not to wince at mere contact with the skin on my stomach were his kicks were worst.

Falling on my bed I crawl under my covers. Taking a deep breath and relaxing the first time today.

I'm so sick of this boring life and this boring town.

Everyone hates me or thinks I'm weird in school. And maybe they are right. Maybe I am weird.

I just want to start over.

Please if there is a god up there please please help me.

I'm so tired now. I don't have the strength to live. Why would I even do when I grow up.

I'm not good at anything and I'm not smart.

With these thoughts I fall asleep.

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