Complications

9. Vox

TW
Suicidal references and self harm

Once I got to The Greed Ring, I tried to call Val but my phone died. I asked everyone if I could use their phones but they all said no.

So I went and met Zestial and he offers me an old fashioned phone. I quickly dial the work phone, hoping Val would be there already but Velvette answers.

She says:
"What the actual FUCK have you been doing? Your boyfriend has been worried sick about you Vox, WORRIED SICK. He is at home right now, panicking because you won't call him back, so don't call me, call him. NOW, YOU DUMBASS PIECE OF SH-"

I cut her off at that last part and I quickly dial Val's number. He answers at the first ring, like he had been sat by the phone waiting for me to call.

"Hey, sorry I didn't call you sooner, my phone died and Zestial gave me his to call you, Vel says your worried."

"Y-Yeah, you scared.. me" he says, his voice is shaky and it sounds like he has been crying.

"Hey, talk to me, what's going on? What's wrong?" I say, trying to sound as supportive as possible.

"Nothing... It's fine, I was just scared you weren't ok, that's all."

"If I was there with you baby, I would give you the biggest hug and tell you everything will be fine."

"T-Thanks, so anyway, how was the trip" he asks, his voice is still a bit wobbly but his Spanish accent is coming back slowly, which is a good sign he isnt worrying as much.

"Oh you know, just your average train ride" I say, not really knowing how to answer that question.

"Well, thats good, you really worried me there Voxxy" he says, his confidence is coming flooding back. I turn bright red when he calls me 'Voxxy' but i seem to like hearing his voice twist around the syllables. It was nice and pleasent to the ear.

"Zestial said ill be back home in two weeks. do you think you'll be okay without me just until then?" I ask, hoping Velvette has offered to take care of him.

"Don't worry about me Voxxy, I'll be just fine, now go give the phone back to that old windbag and send him my love" he says and I smile to myself.

"Will do, love you baby" I say not really thinking about what i just said.

"You... love me?... I didn't think we were ready to say that yet-" he says through a nervous laugh but I cut him off before he can finish.

"Yes, I love you and you dont have to say it back, I know how you feel about it but i just thought you should know, thats all" I admit and there is deathly silence through the phone for a good 20 seconds until he speaks up in a shaky voice.

"No, I love you too Voxxy... That sounds really weird coming out of my mouth to be honest" he chuckles and i laugh softly too.

"Good weird?"

"Very good weird, its nice to say" he says and I can sense him smiling and blushing through the call.

"Anyway, I should probably get going, call you later?"

"Yeah, and update me on the drama that happens in the meeting, it always kicks off, doesn't it?"

"Of course i will BabyBug, bye" I hang up and I give the phone back to Zestial, thanking him. I get back to the meeting as I charge my phone, hoping to talk to Velvette later.

The meeting goes on for 2 or so hours but all I think about is Val, about how scared he sounded. I am terrified that Velvette won't look after him for the next 2 weeks. I mean, Val can get pretty anxious when I'm not there.

I had to work late one night and Val didn't know, so I came home half an hour late and I found him in tears in the bathroom. He was curled up in the corner, shaking uncontrollably.

He had cuts all up his arms and wings. There was blood all over the floor and a shard of glass he used. There was an empty pill bottle next to him, it was full that morning. It has become more an addiction than a prescription for his anxiety.

The thought of that scene forced tears to run down my face. I quickly wiped them when Zestial said "why Vox, are you okay?" All of the other overlords look at me and I hide my face.

"What? Yeah, no, I'm fine..." I say, even though I am so scared about Val, I love him to bits, I really do, but the thought of him hurting himself while i'm not there chills me to the bone.

The other overlords turn their attention back to Zestial and Carmilla presenting the meeting. Everyone except Alastor, who just kept on staring and i looked at the floor, still holding all of my tears in until i get back to the hotel.

I know I haven't updated this in a long time, but oh well, I think you lot have done alright for yourselves while I was gone. Also, I apologize for this being so long, anyway, buh bye.