Complications

4. Valentino

Heyyy, it's 3 in the morning rn, I have nothing better to do, so here is the next chapter y'all. Don't mind the last chapter pls, anyway... Bye.

Yes, I did kiss Vox, I just couldn't resist, he was so vulnerable and so cute. I knew he wanted me to. He can't deny it. Anyway, when he left this morning he left a note on his pillow. I woke up and I read this:

Hey sorry, but I had to leave early this morning, see later at work?

My heart snapped in half when I read that. I didn't know what to say or do. He didn't even have the decency to wake me up or tell me where he was going. I got up and I put on my robe.

I went over to the couch, got my chocolate bar and I put on my favorite rom-com, they were actually happy, they lived together... They were actually dating.

Not just a random fling that has been carrying on for 3 years and hasn't gone anywhere.

Not just a hook up you work with, flirt with and talk to about your problems even though you know he couldn't give a shit. I want something like they have. A relationship.

I start to cry softly to myself but after a while I get myself together. I wipe my face in the bathroom sink and I look at myself in the mirror.

I tell myself what my dad always told me: "Moth's don't cry, Moth's don't get upset, so get yourself together you whiney little bitch and get a hold of yourself"

It was something along those lines, it was just missing a slap at the end. I collapse onto the floor as the memories of my dad come flooding back.

I wipe my face and I stand up, trying not to get too emotional. I go back into my bedroom and I get dressed. I feel scared of seeing Vox, I don't know what it is, but I am scared...

What if he just says:
I didn't love you, I never have and I never will

I hate you so much Val, never talk to me again

Why did you even come back to work, nobody wants to see your pathetic face again

Get your scrawny ass away from here, far away from here

These thoughts decided to get into my head and never leave. I got to work and I hold my breath as I walk past Vox, not really looking at him.

He tries to wave hi but he restrains himself. That's the thing with us, it's always so awkward after we sleep together. We just don't know what to say or do around each other.

I get through the day without talking to him, just as I'm about to leave, Velvet tell comes up to me.
"What happened between you two? Are you ok? You aren't doing... You know... Anymore, right?"

I shake my head and she looks me in my eyes.
"Are you sure? If I find out your lying to me I will fucking-" I cut her off.
"I promise, I don't do that anymore" I answer calmly, trying to keep my composure.

I know this chapter was quite long, but oh well.