Maybe one day... (HAS smut later on)

The event.

I felt my heart drop. Did he really say that..?
"Why..?"
"Because I don't want people knowing I'm gay... Giyuu. I really enjoyed this moment with you... But-"
"But what?! You're ashamed of what we *truly* are??!
"Tomioka.. Please calm down-"
"NO!! I thought you were different, that maybe besides you being dared to ask me out on a date you'd actually CARE for me, for my feelings and opinions on how I felt about YOU. I was so happy finding out that YOU out of everyone could like me, because you know what, I LIKE YOU TOO. But I guess I was being stupid again..."
"Giyuu.."

his face was stern, but I could tell it kept trying not to break into a sobbing mess. I pushed myself off of him and quickly picked up my clothes. My legs were so sore, my face was dry and pasty feeling with the smudged makeup and dry tears, my neck still healing from all the turns it's done throughout the day and my hair messy from all the pulling, I wanted to run back into his arms and cry my heart out and kiss him stupid. Why? I don't know.

My mind could be so simple yet so complex at the same time. I was dumb for believing that I could have something with him. Sanemi was in denial, and I wasn't going to be the gay idiot he can mess around with, he can find another twink to help him.

I quickly put my clothes on, I blindly pick up my nagagi, I was too tired to remember how I got home, I just remember collapsing on my stiff bed, my window open with the moon shining onto my bed. I felt a knock on my door. I felt numb. I lazily said come in. Shinobu came in, she gasped at the sight of me, I was a hot mess.

"GIYUU! Oh my!"
"Hey.. Kocho..."
"What happened..?"

I soon felt my eyes tear up with the thought of what happened. We made love, it was messy and unplanned but it was love.. And we made it. It was a blur, but I could remember the fresh pain of being told he didn't want people knowing about his sexuality and what had happened between us. I cried more, I felt her small body wrap around me.

"Hush, Giyuu... It's okay, dear... You know, I will always and forever be by your side to comfort you."
"He... He's ashamed of m-me, I feel so dumb..."
"... What?"

I explained what had happened, her face contorted into one of distaste and understanding.

...
"He's stupid if he could turn down such a chance to be with someone as wonderful as you, giyuu.."
"Really..?" my voice sounded so broken and cracked, but she nodded and hugged me, she reminded me of a mom.. So sweet and caring yet so strong..

"You're... An amazing friend, Shinobu.."
"So are you, Giyuu..."
"Promise to be with me forever..? You're my best friend.."
"I... I promise with my whole heart."

I soon fell asleep in her embrace, drowning in the scent of hers, lavender and vanilla. I had a dream of one day, growing old with Shinobu, our children becoming friends or even marrying each other while we get buried besides  one another. I loved Shinobu, I realized, she was my sibling, my other half, she was my best friend.

I'm glad that out of everyone of the corps, she's the person I ended up friends with.

Sanemi's POV:

WHY DID I DO THAT, TO THE MAN I LIKED?! I'M AN IDIOT!
I was mad, not with him, but with myself. I cried, I cried so hard I felt myself starting to hyperventilate. I love him, and I'm so stupid for saying that. I... I need to talk to someone.

I walked quickly to the butterfly mansion, I need to talk to Kanae, she always has good advice...

"Sanemi?" she asks, she was in a bathrobe, her hair wet. It seems like she just recently took a shower. I was standing at the entrance of her mansion.
"Hey, Kanae. I'm sorry for disturbing you this late but can I come in?" Thankfully, she nods. She opens the door and let's me in, I could smell the sweet scent of her, caramel and vanilla. I could feel the difference of the humid air of spring change into a dry cold once I entered her nicely decorated and homey house.