More than this- A Tronner and Troyler Fan Fiction

Part Four: Complications Part Two

Over the next few days, Tyler was moved from ICU to a normal ward before he had an appointment was a counsellor to sort out a plan for him to do with his self-harm. He was wheeled in a wheelchair to his appointment and it broke my heart to see him struggling to walk and struggling to be the Tyler I knew and I loved. Yes. I love Tyler Oakley. And it was that one night that changed everything. Tyler had been let out of hospital and I was going back to his apartment to help him with things before I went home a couple days later. Connor had left earlier that week as his book had been released and he was on tour. He had kissed me goodbye and he had told me that he loved me and I felt guilty because I was in love with Tyler, not Connor. I knew I needed to tell Connor but the time never seemed right. I knew that I needed to be sure of my feelings for Tyler before anything else and I knew I had the perfect opportunity and I was keeping my promise to Tyler. I will always remember that night. It was special to both Tyler and me and caused a lot of trouble. That's what I regret.

I wheeled Tyler into his apartment as he still couldn't walk from the cuts on his legs and I wheeled him into his bedroom and he asked for me to wait until he was out of the shower. I waited on Tumblr and Twitter and Tyler wheeled himself out and stop in front of me. He looked up at me and he smiled a small smile before he put his arms around my neck and started to kiss me. As Tyler was kissing me, I lifted him out of his wheelchair and laid him on his bed until I was on top of him. We both paused for a moment but we both knew it was what we wanted and that we both loved each other and it was then one of the best moments of my life happened. Tyler ripped off my shirt and my trousers while kissing me quickly and I took off his shirt until we were both were naked. I took a moment to take in the sight of Tyler and it took my breath away. He was incredibly stunning and beautiful and it made me fall in love all over again with him. It was then we both let go. And fuck a duck it was incredible. It was the best experience of my life and Tyler was gentle with me through the whole thing. After a while, we went back to just kissing and I kissed his cuts both on his upper and lower part of his body and he shuddered in pain and pleasure. We both fell asleep in each-other's arms soon after. I awoke the next morning and Tyler was sleeping soundly next to me and all I could think was, this could be real life and then it hit me. Connor. I had just had sex with another guy and I cheated on him. The broke me a part further and it made me scared and nervous. I started to shake and Tyler awoke to this and after he tried to hold me still, my whole vision went black and everything went dead.

I awoke to white walls and Connor sitting next to me, a worried expression on his face. I look up at him and it broke me apart because I knew that we were done and he didn't know. He saw me wake up and handed me a piece of paper before leading the room. I read it later on and I understood why he had left the room. It read:

"Hey Troye,

This is hard for me to say but I think we need space and need to see other people. I love you more than you can imagine but it's not working. I live in America. You live in Perth. I'm really sorry but we're over. I love you enough to let you go. Don't hate me for this. I am really sorry.

All my love,

Connor"

He broke up with me in a letter the same way it had started. It broke me apart but I knew that I had Tyler and it made me happier until I got shocking news later that day. That shattered my world forever. When I had come into the hospital, the doctor had ran some tests and they had found a small tumour on my brain which was causing me to black out. He told me that I needed surgery straight away and that there might be complications. It was then my life tumbled at my feet and I collapsed.