Not Like Her

4

*for some reason I thought the whole story has been written in present tense- so please tell me what do you prefer? present tense or past??

It's not a lie to say that while everyone thinks about different things, some people thinking about the inevibility of death-or life threatening things, others think about boys. And all the other silly stuff that comes with it. 

My parents both think that Macy thinks about boys, and only boys. They say that I am a good, innocent young girl who thinks about all the important things. 

Not boys.

But, funny thing is, I do think about boys. Actually I think about them a lot, but I just don't show it. Because, how does one show it? The only way someone knows that boys take up your mind is if you talk about it-or show it. Macy shows it. She looks at boys, for example whenevr she is saying something or doing something-like kicking a footy, she will do this sort of side eye where she watches them watch her. I tried it once or twice but the boys called me out on it.

So my parents have never thought she was a good role model, she never will be they say. Even when we all grow up. Whenever I say that Macy is practically a grown up my parents say, 'exactly'. I don't really understand it, I just want attention like my best friend. I just want to be like her.

Some people have even said I'm in love with her. But I'm not, I'm into boys. Plus she's my best friend, I can love my best friend. 

However, saying all this, I do believe my parents are right. Macy does think about boys, but I do too. So I would be a bit of a hypocrite to judge her for it, although a tiny part of me does judge her for showing it so much. I promised my parents that I would calm down with the whole Macy thing. Perhaps lean back a bit. It seems like Macy doesn't care for me as much anymore, but I still care about her. She's been my best friend for years. I told them I wouldn't be as much her friend, more so an acquaintance. I would give her advice and all that. Because by the rate she's going, I'm going to be depressed by next year. 

"Akayla? You with us?" A voice booms in front of me, I turn my head away from the table, my table partner; Gemma snickers as I turn red. My cheeks feel as if their on fire.

I gulp, "Um."

Her sneer softens and she sighs.

"We were talking about the upcoming project on climate change and effect ways to help stop it. It needs to be completed during lunch, recess or out of school-you will have no time to work on it during class. It's due by next week on the Thursday and your working in groups. You, Akayla, are in a group with Macy, Andrew and Jake."

I imagine my head banging repeatedly into a metal wall. 

I look around the classroom for those people. Macy grins and waves at me, she winks too. Of course. She got to hang out with the two dudes she fancies the most! I will be such a third wheel!! Jake is looking down at a sheet of paper doodling on it, one I realise is in front of me too, with all the information about this assignment that is going to kill me. Before Jake became popular and 'one of the popular' boys he used to be an amazing drawer. I don't know if he's still got it in him, it would be such a waste of talent if he didn't. A small part of me is curious, and I get the weird urge to ask him about it. 

I snap my attention to Andrew. Oh Andrew.. He was staring at Macy, well both Macy and Liz. I can tell by the way his gaze keeps flicking between the two of them. He's got the same look in his eyes he had when he first saw Macy. Certainly not the same look he had when he saw me. 

Liz is extremely pretty, possibly even prettier than Macy. Could i get called a bitch for saying that? I don't know. Liz is also very tall and bi, so she doesn't usually get many guys. Although it wouldn't be a problem because Andrew is even taller than her. But Liz already has a girlfriend so it doesn't matter.

"Okay." I mumble, attempting to not show the misery I could defiantly feel seeping its way into my heart. 

As the bell went, Macy strolls over to me, Andrew and Jake hot on her heels. Jake glares at Andrew but Andrew just smirks and focuses on Macy. Macy is much shorter than Andrew, which is funny because I've never seen Macy as that short. I am only just taller than her.

"Soooo when should we do it?" She batters her eyelashes to the boys as she talks.

"Uh.. what about now? This lunch?" I ask hesitantly. 

"I've got footy now." Jake says.

"Tomorrow lunch?" I offer.

"I've got basketball." Andrew says.

I almost give up. "The day after that?"

Macy decides to finally hop into the conversation, "Can't. I'm meeting up with c-Liz."

She catches herself, almost saying she's meeting up with Cooper then. 

"Then tonight or something?" No one objects to that. So it's decided. "Okay. What about your house, Mace?"

"Yours." She whispers.

What?!

So that is how I end up bring home two boys and my player of a friend home with me.