Anntonette
She was about to propose. The thought continued to echo through my head, with the regret and guilt making my situation worse. It wasn't supposed to end that way, maybe if we fought harder for us, we wouldn't have parted. Tears streamed down my face, why am I feeling this way? Am I still into her? Or maybe I'm just hang up on the fact that we could've had it all. We put so much fight for fighting, but so little fight for love.
I cried harder at the thought, the guilt taking over, knowing I was the one who called it off, I was the one who ended us, the one who ruined our future, her plans, our plans.
FLASHBACK
"I want a dog, no, two, and one cat," Ann stated ecstaticly, excited to create a future with Zara, her Zara. "Oh? What do you want to name them?" her girlfriend asked adoringly. "I want to name our cat Scarlet, and our dogs, I'll let you name one of them, and I'll name the other one Snow, Pearl or Tia, I can't decide," Zara laughed at that. Her girlfriend can't even decide what to name their dog, how will she name their future child? Right, a child, does she even want one?
Zara shoot her shot, "what about a baby?" She asked shyly, Ann pondered for while, before answering enthusiastically "I want to name our baby, if they will be a girl, Seraphine, and if they're a boy, can we name them Theodore?" Zara beamed a smile, she wants to have a child with her, she wants to start a family with her. She shot Ann a playful look, "if its a girl, I feel like we should name her, Seraphine Danielle," she stated with a playful look on her face, "okay, she's Zara Daniela's child anyways," Zara's smile grew bigger, not expecting Ann to agree to her request. Ann noticed it, "you look so cute when you smile so big like that," she uttered before giving Michelle a peck on the lips, " well, lucky you, this smile exists whenever I'm with you, so you will be seeing this everyday," Ann blushed at that, but brushed it off, "So cheesy, Z, okay, let's move on to our future home with our future babies,"
"I want to live on the countryside, the city is too noisy and chaotic for us," she stated clearing her throat, and her lovestruck girlfriend just agreed with her.
END OF FLASHBACK
Anntonette
I ruined it all. I ruined it all. I ruined it all.
Our home, our cats, our dog, our future child, our future Seraphine Danielle Porsild-Dee. I'm sorry, Seraphine, I ruined our future. All because of one argument. I wiped my tears. A loud knock on the door,.
I almost forgot, I have a date with Ian today. I sat up, getting ready to open the door. "Hey babe," he greeted, "why are your eyes swolen?" he added. "Oh, uh- I was just- reading a novel, the couple broke up because of one argument," lies. Ian sighed. He never supported my liking for reading, as a matter of fact, he never supported anything that I liked. Zara did, she would still have.
Finding out about Zara's failed proposal made me question my self, do I really love Ian? I did, but not as much as I loved her. Do I still love Zara?
Yes, as a matter of fact, I still do.
I felt the need to break up with Ian, I can't be someone I don't love, Nathalie is right, our relationship is toxic. So I'm doing it. I'm breaking up with him, tonight, on our date. Right.
I just hope he doesn't propose tonight, like he's been hinting on.
