I feel like shit. I'm getting worse and worse. I can't get over you. I can't move on from you. Its not lust. You are er were my true love and soul mate. You used to be everything. You are still my world well sort of. I really don't want to bother getting another girlfriend because I'm just going to fuck it up again. I'm not interested in anybody else. I still have feelings for you but I guess that's wrong now. This is really bad and not like me but I keep dreaming of the end. Last night it was you abandoning me and I kms. The night before it was you and ur bf getting married and I kms. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I guess more depression and more kms dreams. My life has gone to hell ever since you left me. My pain gets worse day by day. I only fight through it because you are my one and only best friend with benefits. I hold on for you and Halie. And I'll protect you both.
