No ones pov
Another day of school... I'm looking for something to wear, something comfy but cute.
Today is supposed to be my dad's birthday, it's sad cause I know I can't wish him happy birthday, sometimes it's hard, because he is my father, and I somehow love him, but then I remember everything he did to me... and it's hard. I'm really trying this day, but today it's a bit harder to handle.
As I'm searching in my closet to try and find something comfy,suddenly, I see my favorite jeans "Yes omg!" I take them with excitement. I put them on, or at least I tried, the jeans won't feat me anymore. I rush to the mirror and suddenly I'm staring at the mirror judging every single inch of my body.
I angrily take them out, and throw them away to the other side of the room. Some frustrated tears felt in my face, as I get angrier and angrier. 'There's no way this is happening, my favorite jeans doesn't fit me anymore, what is wrong with me?', I say to myself.
I finally took some sweatpants and a big hoodie,I looked like a garbage bag.
I walk to the bathroom as I see my reflection in the mirror. I lift my hoodie up and I turn sideway, 'ugh disgusting',I start bodychecking every part of my body as I say to my 'I need to change this'. I sigh and take my toothbrush, I brush my teeth and I try to do a clean look.
As im doing my usual morning routine I can't stop thinking about how I'm going to fit in those jeans back and what I'm going to do.
I decided to grab my phone and open the notes app, I've always known that the best way of losing weight is reducing your calories and controlling the amount of food you eat.
I decided to track mines, so I can actually lose some weight.
"I'm here" a message from Luke appears in my screen. I open it and rush to get my school bag.
"I'm going" ugh I hate rushing in the mornings.
As I run upstairs I see my mom walking to my room.
"Mom I need to go bye" I say grabbing my bag and running downstairs.
Mom said something but I couldn't hear it.
I close the door and I see that Luke is waiting for me.
"good morning!" He says happily.
I sit down and lay my head in the car seat as I sigh and cover my face with my hands. Exhausted of the rushing I just did.
"hey what's wrong?" Luke says softly.
"nothing sorry, good morning" my voice sounds a little bit bitter. I am actually so pissed off I don't want anyone to talk to me or even look at me. I'm mad at myself.
We arrive to school. I had maths then English followed by chemistry and then lunch.
"damn it I forgot my lunch" I can't believe I forgot my lunch, I hate school lunch and it's probably gonna be pizza or a burger or something like that, and that is gonna make me gain weight, that's not what I wanted.
"You can take lunch at the cafeteria I'll go with you" ella says.
"No I'm ok I really don't want pizza today" I say walking to the lunch tables.
I figured if I don't eat lunch today then I wouldn't have to count calories for the lunch, so that's what I did. I stare at them while they eat their homemade lunches. I wonder if this day could get any worse.
Suddenly Cristina sits in front of me. Cristina is some girl from Luke's class, she is so into him, but we both hate her so much.
"What are you doing here" Luke says.
She is so mean to me, she always have been, I'm really not in the mood to talk to her, I choose to ignore her.
"Bella" she says
"Your outfit looks cute" she says laughing at my outfit. Of course she is laughing, she has all the reasons too, she is wearing such a cute outfit, and her clothes fit her insanely perfectly.
If I had her body shape I would go in a swimsuit all around the world. Seriously she is perfect.
