"𝑳𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝑶𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒃𝒆𝒓"

09 - 07 - 24

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                         Taylor Swift ~ LOML

                         "Your arsons match
                           Your somber eyes."

                  It was actually the last look
                                  You give me
                    On the last day of school
                                  A few months
                                            Ago

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Hey, I know it's been a long while since I've last wrote to you..... how you've been? How's college been going for you? Do you find it easy? Hard? Complicated? Have you made any new friends? Are they nice? How has classes been going for you? Do you enjoy your classes? What are you majoring in? Did you forgot about me? LOL... for me, School started on the 5th of this month and it was actually crazy. It feels so weird. I can't believe that I'm a junior now, not only that but your former school aka my school has pretty much changed up everything.... it got so crowded..... teachers became somewhat stricter than last year. I've got your math teacher, yep, I know.... most of my friends also had her last year and they absolutely hated her. She's insane. How did you even managed in that class? My other classes have been going okay besides math. During gym class, this guy kept making eye contact with me, he had braided hair which reminded me of you but I shook the thoughts away because you're yourself and that guy is himself. You both are completely different people anyways you won't believe what he did.... after my gym class ended, I literally had a gut feeling that the boy was gonna follow me and guess what? He totally did.... bro literally followed me all the way from the 1st floor till to the 3rd floor and I didn't realized it until I felt someone super close behind me and I froze as I turned around and had to look up because he was mad tall. Taller than you. No offense lol. I told one of my friend about it and she was like "looks like you found your high school sweetheart." And I was like "absolutely not." And she was like "why not? He made it obvious." And I remained silent as I thought about you like I've always did. I thought that you would've been the one, not exactly the one but the one as like being my boyfriend? Or like just a friend, yeah. Anyways at school, bunch of guys be wearing the same color bag that you had. Anyways then when I was going to lunch, this guy bumped into me and I got so mad and he was like "my fault yo" and I just glared at him before walking away as I got a flashback of that time when this guy had bumped into me and I think it was on a tuesday as I was wearing my scrubs and I glared at him before turning back around and speaking to my guy friends however when I looked back thats when I saw you behind me talking to that guy and your jaw was clenched and I couldn't even hear what you said so I rolled my eyes before turning back to my friends however when I looked back again, I didn't saw the guy who bumped into me, I only saw you and you looked at me and I immediately looked away as I began flirting with my guy friends and I could feel you staring behind me. I missed you, bandana. I miss you so much. I'm sorry. It's pathetic and stupid of me for writing this letter to you. I shouldn't have gotten too attached in the first place. I shouldn't have even bothered speaking with you in the first place.... but tell me something...... didn't you once at least.... have a little feelings for me? I mean why did your eyes used to sparkle when you looked down at me? Why did you used to kinda be smiling whenever I'd say your name happily? Why did you used to even let me walk with you in the first place? You could've easily politely said no. I miss your voice. I miss seeing you in the hallways. I miss everything. Well, thats it for now. Take care of yourself. Keep focusing in college and I'm sure you'll do amazing! ~ A

JI ♡
12:38am Saturday 7, 2024