My YOU

4. A LISTENER<3

*Yawning* HAAWWWWWW! its already morning, I didn't sleep a minute. I think I should sleep.

*I slept only for an hour.* It was the weekend, so I thought I should ask my dad to go out with us. I did and he agreed. First, we went on a long drive, (ahh I love long drives). Enjoying scenery and listening to music. At that time I was listening to duvet. I was thinking that how can a song be so good, the lyrics were heartbreaking but yet a part of the song always felt like at some point the life's gonna change, and it will be like this part of the song,

As she says in the song,

"I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning

Help me to breathe

I am hurting, I have lost it all

I am losing

Help me to breathe," 

suddenly a peaceful music comes, it feels like the peace she was begging for, the peace she was yearning for, finally came, she finally let go, and she's finally happy, and at some point of the life the same thing will happen to others too, so we shouldn't be hopeless, I guess that's what she wanted to share with us, I don't know it's just a guess.

"Will I be at peace again?" I was thinking and enjoying the drive at the same time.

We arrived at the adventure land, and OFCOURSE, I finally wanted to have some fun, feel the fresh air, get thrilled again, and ride the rides again. I wanted to live my life to the fullest, there was a sudden change in me, I don't know why, but I wanted to live more. To live without any regrets.

Suddenly I got a text from sam.

" Hey, you free?" He texted.

I told him that I'm away from home right now, and will talk to him at night, I was smiling while texting him. There was a sudden peace in my heart, I don't know why.

I enjoyed the rides, specially the roller coaster. it was so thrilling. After enjoying our time in the adventure land, we took dinner at a fancy restaurants, went straight home. Today was the best day of this year. I was finally happy. I got home and texted him.

"Hey, I'm back, are you free?" I texted him.

And guess what he replied within a minute.

"Yeah, I'm free, come in the app," he texted.

I opened the app, and joined a table with him. I told him about my day excitedly, and he was listening to me like a good listener. No one listened to me like that. He wanted to hear more, so I told him about the craziest thing that happened to me today.

"I'm gonna tell you, another thing," I said.

"Go ahead, I'm all ears," Sam replied.

"I went to a haunted house, I mean not the real one, but in that adventure land, there was an artificial one where you can get an experience of that, and guess what the ghost tried to scare me, but instead I scared him. That poor thing tried to scare me, but I was laughing at him. To be honest I do get scared but not that much, he finally got me scared in the end, hehe.

"BWAHHAA WHAT? YOU DIDN'T GET SCARED, I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT," he said.

"Believe me, I watched horror movies, I don't get  scared over little things you know," 

"Okay okay fine, I believe in you."

Did he really said, I believe in you?. Wait, my heart is racing, uhm, I don't know why. No one's ever said that they believe in me. What should I do now, he isn't lying, is he?

"You believe in me?" I said.

"Yeah, I do." He replied.

"Ohh, It's just, no one ever said that to me, hehe." I replied.

"It's okay, if no one's believe you, just think of me, I believe in you, okay?" 

"Thankyou," I replied.

We talked about other things and crazy experiences we had in our lives, it was fun spending time with him, talking to him, no one's ever listened to my ramble, and then there is this person, who loves to hear me, and wanted to hear more and more, so I talked and I talked all night. I felt so good, finally there's someone who will listen to my silly stories. It was past midnight, so we said goodbye to each other and close the app.

I was thinking about my past, that how I survived that man, huh, he wasn't even interested in my rambling. I was getting angry, and didn't want to ruin the mood, so I just tried to sleep.

*One year earlier*

I can't stand it, I need to talk to him, he will help me out of it.

*Calling him*

"Hello, why did you came late? Care to explain." He said.

"Look, I'm in a terrible situation right now. I got into a fight with my family member. Please listen to me,"

"Do you really think I have time to listen to your nonsense?"

"Why are you doing this to me, all you have to do is just hear, hear what I have to say," I said, sobbing.

"I don't give a F**K,"

*He cuts the call*

That day, I cried myself to sleep, I was hopeless, all he could do was listen to me, and he didn't even cared about my situation, I was mourning so much that day. I was so hurt. And nobody cared.