Desire and Despair

6. The young child

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"This kid is going to be your subordinate"

I still remember the horror I felt at hearing those words.

"His name is Kyouka Izuku"

I was afraid of having a subordinate, because I knew that I was going to break my subordinate in one way or another, in the mere future.

"GET UP IN YOUR FEET" I used to shout at him.

My training methods were the same as my former mentor. I used to teach and treat my mentee the same way I was treated by Dazai.

I didn't know how else to handle him.

One day I saw him crying in his room, the light was dim and his cries were concealed.

I taught him that crying is a weakness

I didn't know what, but something sparked inside of me. I opened the half closed door and went straight to hug him, he was startled by that sudden action.

"Akutagawa-san, I-uhh-um I didn't mean to-" he began but I cut him off.
"Shh it's ok, let it all out" I said as I patted his back to which he was taken by a shock but then soon gave in.

"Sob....sob..Nee"he unconsciously called me Nee and hugged me tightly.
He wasn't letting go, that time, I stayed till he fell asleep on my lap.

"It's ok, I am right here" I said to his sleeping form.

At that very moment, I knew that I needed to protect him, no matter what.

I started going easy on him and started teaching him like a normal mentor would. I used to take him on outings and visit places.

Then we enhanced a sibling-like bond. But then the sudden
the remembrance of my little sister wasn't good, as everyone in the mafia knew how much I cared about Izuku.

Me and Izu walked down the hallway of the port mafia, when I was met with a familiar face.
"Well well well, what do we have here?" It's Gin.

"Since someone like you can't persuade me, so you manipulated this poor child. Shame on you, but I guess I can't expect anything less from a disgusting person like you" she spat out.

"I pity you kid....what was your name again?" She made a thinking gesture "ah yes, Izuku-" she was cut off by Izu.

"Don't you dare call Nee-san a disgusting person, also you have no right to ca me like that" Izu was angry at that time, he even raised his voice at her.

I had never seen him like that before.
He kept glaring at her.

"Wha-I was just....you know what, go to hell"she got angry at that"You are just like her"she was so mad, that her face turned red.

"Just like nee? Thank you, that would be a compliment" Izu said as he took my hand in his then walked past her.

"Kyou" I called out "nee, you don't have to listen to those nonsense" he told me while looking down.

I mustered a sad smile.

That's right, she hates me.

Gin hates me.

All thanks to Dazai.

I did everything for her, I even joined the port mafia for her. I trained through all those harsh conditions, just for her.....but at the end, she despises me.

.....That's fine