polar opposites [satosugu]

*~ admiration ~*

*SATORU'S POV*

I can't tell if Geto is warming up to me or not. This guy's walls are completely unbreakable. Most of the time I can't read his expressions at all, it's a little frustrating. I would like to think that he's warming up to me though. We've walked to class together on the days we have them for the past week.

I mean, we only have 6 scheduled classes a week in total, but I really feel like I'm getting somewhere. I can't help but feel a certain admiration for him, in the way he protected me and held me. I want him to like me as a person, so I'm trying to be less annoying. But like I said, I can't tell if it's working or not. I think him letting me walk with him at all is a good thing, but we mostly go in silence.

We do have one of the same class though, different times however. Occasionally I'll ask him for help on work, and sometimes he'll ask me too. He doesn't let me get too close to him for some reason though. It's like I always have to be at least one foot away from him at all times.

We are sitting in our dorm right now, the silence isn't comfortable, but it's not uncomfortable either. We're just existing together, I guess. It bums me out a little bit, that he never has any desire to talk to me unless he needs something.

It's me. I know it's my fault. He isn't a cold person, he's kind. I saw that from how he interacted Shoko. 

Haha, not when he threw her across the room, but when they were being civil- before all that. He was caring towards her and I saw another side of him when I saw his friendship. I want to see more of that from him, but he won't let me.

"Satoru?"

...

What?

Did I mishear him? I must have.

"Satoru?" He calls out to me again. I'm laying on my bed with my eyes wide, not knowing how he could first name me for the first time ever and expect me to act so casually to it. I should probably answer him, but I'm busy trying to control my excitement right now.

It rolls off his tongue so beautifully. How do I even respond to something like that?

"Yeah?" I manage to say, trying to hide my happiness. You would think that for an actor, masking this sort of feeling would be easy. Not really.

"Can you help me with Physics?" He asked. I practically teleported next to him at his desk. Is this an invitation for me to call him Suguru? Should I ask? I feel very overwhelmed right now.

I help him with his work and I tell him goodnight, heading back to the top of my bed. It feels like I'm dreaming right now, he's finally dropping the formalities! I have never been this excited about something like this in my whole life. I mean, I've never really had to experience something like this. People have always let me call them whatever I want. I let people call me Satoru most of the time, but he did it on his own, because he wanted to. How can I not feel excited?