vortex ² [poetry] ✓

xix. don't come back or wait for me

vortex - lizzy mcalpine
“someday, i'll be able to let you go; someday you'll came back and i'll say no.”

sit and wait until i don't care anymore
it matches the mood of your closed doors

i'm pretty sure you were tired of me
cause if you weren't, you wouldn't leave

you cared so much until you just didn't
came back when your mind had changed
and thought you'd already been forgiven

because that's when i always break
when you look at me with a teary gaze
you're guilt tripping me 'til i get afraid
until i'm done with your fake-love-game

i don't understand and you don't explain
we're similar when it comes to pain
and both tired but in very different ways
you criticise it when i try to get okay
set out blame because you're also to save

but that's not on me, or am i mistaken?
is it really on me to carry that weight?

it just seems to always be the same
i wait until you leave and i'm replaced
but i just want to see some better places

it's not hard to see the image you painted
once you scream at me so much hatred

then i look at all that energy i wasted
and i'm confused why it felt complicated
to just turn and watch you fading away

because i now know about changes
and about how much better love tasted

when it's actually healthy and not fake
when it kinda feels like a warm embrace
nothing like that cold hug i used to await
yeah, i feel kinda glad you stayed away