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Luke and Jack left for Jersey last night, well a couple of hours ago. I haven't slept and I can't sleep, I'm so excited for what's going to happen for him in Jersey I know I'm just going to miss him.
I cried so hard when he left.
"Alright Ken this is it" he holds his suitcase in his hand, Luke is leaving for New Jersey.
"Yep Lukey this is it" I smile "I'm so proud of you I hope you know that".
"I do baby I do" he nods, Luke takes his hand of the handle of his suitcase and wraps his arms around me. "I love you so much Kenny baby".
"I love you more Lukey baby" I wipe a tear that had fell down my cheek.
Whenever I'm trying to hold my tears in if someone hugs me they all just fall.
He pulls away from the hug and his eyes look in mine. "It might be hard but we'll do this, please don't cry".
"Not crying" I chuckle.
"What's that then?" He points.
"Sweat".
He laughs. "Alright then" he looks at me again places his lips on mine, I can feel people watching us but I don't care. "Your my favourite girl ever I'm not gonna let anything happen to you alright" "I may be far away but people will be looking out for you and make sure your not putting stress on yourself" "okay?".
I nod and he places another kiss onto my lips.
"I love you so much kenny I'll make you proud" he wraps his arms around my waist.
"You already have Luke" I tell him "I love you more".
"Unlikely cause I love you m-"
"Come on Luke we have to go" Jack cuts him off.
"Yeah" he nods tears brimming in his eyes "Alright Ken stay safe and I love you" he kisses my lips again, keeping his lips on mine for a little longer wrapping his arm around my waist then pinching my side.
I pull apart and hit his arm. "You know I hate that" I giggle "I love you".
"I know but it made you smile" he smiles "boys look after her if I find out she's been hurt I'm coming after all of yous".
"Got ya" they nod.
"Bye Kenny baby".
"Bye Lukey baby".
Lily and Dylan asked me if I wanted to do something with them before we move all our stuff back into mine and lily's dorm but I politely said no, I did feel bad and I know that I shouldn't be locking myself in my room but I just have no energy to do anything today.
Luca asked if I needed help with my stuff getting moved back in, I said that I'm sure I'll be okay and he's got to move all of his stuff back in but he said him and Adam didn't mind but I still said no. They didn't care and said that they would help me get all of my stuff out of my car and help me cause it would take me ages to do.
I think it's nice them trying to help me but before I dated Luke I was very independent and never asked for help from anyone, when I started dating him even if I said that I didn't need help and that I can do it on my own he would ignore what I said and helped me anyways.
You can tell when I need help because I get so stressed and my closest friends can tell and they help me, I used to think asking for help was embarrassing so I never did growing up and now I still hardly do.
I know that getting all of my stuff into my dorm would take ages to do by myself and I would get so stressed so I'm sort of thankful for them offering to help me, Dylan is already going to help Lily put everything in our dorm.
Me and Lily talked over the summer saying if we should get an apartment a little bit away from campus but it would be expensive so both of us are going to look for a job and save up for it maybe halfway into the term or maybe next year.
Both of our parents said they would pitch in a little but we have to pay as well since we are old enough, we only have two more years left - we have this year and next year then we graduate.
Me and Lily want to work in a good clothing shop so we can get good discounts on clothes, all the guys thought it was stupid but we think its a great idea cause what's the point of buying clothes if we can get them half price and get money for working.
To be honest before I went to collage I had a small job at a café and I loved it but it probably was good because I wasn't doing tons of work, I mean I had to study for my finals and start my collage essay but I only worked Friday's after school, Saturday and Sunday from eight till twelve which wasn't bad cause I would just study when I got home.
The money going towards the apartment would be both mine and Lily's money which wouldn't be that hard if we both have a job and our parents said that they would help us as well which we are grateful for.
I've been up since 3:00 am and I'm exhausted, I look at my phone to see if its on do not disturb which it is- I hardly ever turn it back onto normal. I grab one of my teddies and hug them and close my eyes.
