When I was younger I grew up in a household of nothing but ladies , my father was never really in my life so I had to learn how to be a man on my own really. I always wanted to Love a Lady like I saw my grandma and her daughters got Love from there significant other. My first relationship was just a fuck thing to be honest the whole neighborhood was getting a turn everytime her grandma went to work . I later on started dating her cousin and ended up breaking her virginity . As the years passed on I started taking dating seriously. It was one summer I met the first love of my life name Jakeena. She had her ways of covering up all her dirt but me being simple minded ended up believing every lie she told me untill one day I caught her in action. Every since then I haven't been able to trust a female how I should. I must admit every relationship I have been in have had their good and bad but overall not one lady have been truly honest with me. I tell myself maybe it's because my mother never gave me that love I've always searched for is the reason why I can't Love them how I should. Sometimes I wonder will I ever be good enough for a lady. Every relationship after Jakeena has been a repeated cycle I literally let myself go just to show a female I'm nothing like her last nor other guys that's interested in them, but of course every female abused me mentally. I never lost Faith I just stop trying to give my all untill I saw something different. Sometimes I wonder am I ment to be alone, then I realized I prayed for so much in my kind of lady. I was bless this one day after work to walk back into this Queen Life. When I walked in she stated that she had got chills when she heard my voice.. Even though she was already with her boyfriend she said it was something about me that sent chills through her vains. We exchanged #s and got to know a lil about each other but unfortunately right off the back she told me some of her darkest secrets and current situations she was facing. Don't get me wrong most females wait a couple months maybe a year before they open up but when she did that I couldn't ignore that sign.................
To Be Continued..............
