"I'm.. sorry..."

II: ~why..~

~With Alex~

"I.. I can't believe he said that.. does.. no.." he sighs rubbing his face as tears continue to fall down his face.. "why.. why did he do this.. I.. it's all my fault.."

Alex rushes home depressed as ever, he runs into his house after unlocking the door and letting himself in and rushes up to his room locking himself inside. He didn't want to live like this. Although Alex was extremely popular and had friends he done troubled things with. Max was like his only real friend, they grew up together basically done everything together so this.. this broke Alex entirely.

Alex searched from top to bottom through his cupboards for a note pad when he wrote down the situation today. "I can't believe it, I thought we were best friends.. you know they type who are together forever.. through thick and thin.."
As Alex wrote he got the worst thoughts he could've thought of so.. on the next page he wrote a list..
"Spend a day with my friends"
"Clean my room"
"Spend time with family"
"Not this day, Max's birthday"
"Overdose.. in the field where we used to go.."
As Alex wrote this he teared up, he always loved Max (as a friend of course) but his heart just got shattered by him.

~at school~

During school, Alex done as he promised and avoided Max. Weeks had gone by and Alex's mental state had gotten worse so.. he decided to follow that checklist. Today he spent the day with his friends. It was the day Alex and Max had all the same lessons and it felt weird. Max had started regretting what he had said as he glanced at the empty seat next to him and as he glanced at Alex messing around with his friends.

After the school day Alex had split off from his friends and dropped his fake happy demeanour as he walked back home. Once he got home he opened his note book and ticked the first part on his list.
"Spend a day with my friends" check.
Alex then gets up and cleans his room, everything was spotless and he put his favourite belongings on his desk and he wrote a note next to it saying: "give to Max on his birthday, don't say why." He then gets changed and heads to bed.

The next day it was Max's birthday so Alex put the stuff in a bag and after almost 2 months of ignoring him, he gave Max the bag of his things.
"Here.. I know we aren't friends but.. I still wanted to give you something.." Alex told him softly before turning away. "Don't open for two days though.. you'll figure out why..."
Max was confused but he took it and nodded.
"Alright.. I guess..?"
"Bye.." Alex said softly. It was his last goodbye to Max before his plan.Alex then headed away for the day. He was planning on staying home today since his overdose plan was tomorrow.

Max was extremely confused and didn't know how to react. He just went with it and put the bag in his locker. The day went by and Max started overthinking and got worried since he noticed Alex didn't actually stay in school..