Day 5: Confessions
I battled all pros and cons into telling Kyle. True we’ve been best friends for over 98098324 years, but my telling of a girl that I like is a first for both of us. Sure we talked about girls, the pretty ones, the sexy ones, the ones you want to date for some time, the ones you don’t want to date even for a day but not the ones who have potential, not the ones who might be the one you’d want to spend the rest of your life with.
I know I’m acting strange and almost lovey-dovey but when I think of the girl I want to spend all my time and efforts on, I can’t help but envision our future together. Call me old school but that’s how I feel about her. I THINK.
Yes I know it’s absurd too that I’m seeing her in my future when I don’t even know her name. Believe me I tried too many times to ask her. Too many times to approach her. Too many times just to say hi to her. But how can you possibly talk to that one person you’ve searched your whole life to?
If you are in my position I’d tell surely enough that you feel the same ‘fear’ as I do. Who wouldn’t? The girl you never knew you’ll meet just suddenly pops out right in front of your life as if fate pushed her right in front of your eyes. Waving her in front of your face with fate almost shouting "Come and get me!"
I looked at Kyle who just drank his whole bottle of Gatorade with just one gulp. Should I tell him? Maybe he’ll knock some sense into me when I did. Fudge! I’m like a lunatic! I’m becoming a lunatic.
“If I tell you this will you promise not to laugh?”
“HEY!” Kyle stood up waving his hand to the rest of the team,“Practice is over! Go home!”
I looked at him quizzically and then I stood up and reached for my towel when he threw the ball in my face.
“What’s your problem?!” I said outraged, after ignoring me he tops it up with dilapidating my face.
“I thought you’re about to say something.”
I narrowed my eyes, “I thought you said practice is over?”
“O great Wayland now you’re dumb too. Great. Just great.”
I've never felt so lost in my whole life.
“Dude I told them to go home since you’ll tell me your deepest darkest secret. You don’t want the whole team to hear your love story right?”
I sighed in relief. What am I thinking? What have I become? With just one girl my whole identity changed I can’t even think straight!
“You promise not to laugh?”
“Dude, laughing is an involuntary emotion, I can try not to but it will definitely reflect in my face if I force myself not to let it out.”
He’s right. Many times I promised not to laugh when he’s about to tell me something embarrassing but I always fail to do so.
“So there’s this girl.”
“Yes Wayland I figure that out.” I had the urge of slamming my towel in his face but doing that will not help me unburden my girl problems so I fight the urge instead.
“I can’t stop thinking about her. She’s so perfectly made. I look at her and wonder how can someone look that beautiful and the rest of the world couldn’t even compare. I wait for her everyday but I haven’t even have one long conversation with her.” I stopped, Kyle is looking at me intently I thought he was about to laugh but he didn’t.
“What’s her name?”
I sighed, “That I do not know.”
He slammed the ball in my head so strong it seems like it just got dislocated from my neck. “WHAT’S THAT FOR!!”
“I know we have the same type Aiden Wayland, but trust me when I say I have enough decency in my being that I will never steal her away from you. Plus I wouldn’t even try, you’re Aiden Wayland.!”
He stopped and then eyed me suspiciously, “Is she Samantha Reese?”
After saying that his face contorted into a nasty frown his fists ready to fight with all his might. The same anger I felt when Luis Sandrov touched her. What I feel for the girl, she also feels for Samantha Reese.
“No. I told you I don’t know her name!” he breathe a sigh of relief and smiled once again.
“My heart stopped for a moment there I thought it was Samantha. Does she go here?”
“Yes. She just transferred I think. I saw her riding the same train as mine a few days ago.” Five days to be exact.
“Move man, move before someone gets to see how awesome she is and all of a sudden he takes her away from you and she's gone. The first girl you ever liked, gone, without even knowing her name.”
I smirked, “When you’re able to get Samantha’s number I swear I’ll march up to her and ask her name.”
He smiled. “Deal.”
I walked to the train station, my conversation with Kyle plastered clearly in my mind. I hope he doesn’t have to ask Samantha’s number soon.
When I reached the station, she’s there. Waiting a few steps back at the yellow line. When the train arrived I did the usual, and the sudden brush of her hair in my skin electrified me.
She leaned her head back in her seat and within seconds she is asleep. It was on the fifth day that I breathe all of earth’s courage and sat beside her in the train. I waved my hand in front of her face, there’s no response. Only the weird looks that people are darting in my direction. I didn't care.
I placed her head on my shoulders and I suddenly have this certain feeling that she belongs with me. That our hands when intertwined will be perfectly fitted. For that one crazy moment I swore I felt that she is made just for me.
When the train is nearing our stop I placed her head carefully back to where she first leaned it. so carefully she wouldn’t even suspect a thing. I stood up and went back to where I stand. The usual place where I can just peacefully look at her. When the train stopped she didn’t even noticed when she bumped at me.
I didn’t stop there, instead I let the doors close and I sit where she was seated awhile back. I relieved that moment when her head is peacefully resting on my shoulders.
It was perfect.
It was, if not the happiest, the best 10 minutes of my life.
