Just a book of my vents. Probably rarely updated. Trigger warnings since some will most likely talk about SH and other depressing shit. Don't read if the following triggers you:
SH-Self Harm
Swerslide topics and mentions
Emetophobia (no graphics ju...
I can't help that I don't take care of you when you're sick.
And I'm sorry that I'm such a horrible daughter just because it was too scary to come say hi.
I'm sorry that I can't fix this and can't afford the right kind of therapy.
I'm sorry if I seem selfish because I stayed in my room all day.
I'm sorry I can't eat real food or restaurant food in fear of food poisoning.
And don't you dare say just suck it up or just do it because it's not that fucking easy.
EMETOPHOBIA IMPACTS MY LIFE ALL DAY EVERYDAY.
IMAGINE NOT BEING ABLE TO EAT NOTHING BUT SAFE FOOD IN FEAR IF GETTING SICK.
IMAGINE NOT BEING ABLE TO SLEEP IN HOTEL BEDS WITHOUT YOUR OWN BLANKET IN FEAR OF GETTING SICK.
IMAGINE NOT BEING ABLE TO BE AROUND SOMEONE WHOS SICK OR EVEN TALK TO THEM.
IMAGINE FEELING NAUSEOUS EVERY FEW MINUTES AND NIT BEING AVLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.
IMAGINE FINALLY FINDING A COPING MECHANISM AND THEN GETTING IT TAKEN AWAY.
IMAGINE NOT BEING ABLE TO GO TO MOVIE THEATERS OR SLEEPOVERS IN FEAR OF GETTING SICK.
IMAGINE TRYING TO OFF YOURSELF JUST BECAUSE YOU CANT GET RID OF THE NAUSEA.
IMAGINE NO ONE UNDERSTANDING WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH....
A/N: this is what my mom sent that made me write this page. She knows what I go through but it still hurts that my own mother doesn't understand. (If anyone needs to know, idk weird thing my mind does and probably someone else's, battery is at 11% and time is 6:35pm)
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