Should've Said No

Chapter 3:You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same

Taylor's POV
I wake up with a groan trying to move my head. Shit, I guess that what happens when you bawl your eyes out for what feels like hours does to you. I force myself to get up and get ready for another day of hell At least today is Friday so that's okay, right? After I get ready and look somewhat presentable, I make my way downstairs and get my backpack ready. I decide to just grab my lunchbox and bring it with me so the teachers don't get onto me for not having any food in front of me. That was one of the most embarrassing days of my life, and I've had many embarrassing moments and it didn't help that Travis was picking at me all day after that. I grudgingly get my car keys and hop in my car taking my time driving to school. Since I live 30 minutes away from school, I have to go into the highway and of fucking course there is traffic. After about 45 minutes, I finally make it to school with 10 minutes to spare. I take those few minutes to pep talk myself that today is the last day of the week and after today, only next week until graduation. I start feeling confident that I can do it today until a small detail catches my eye. I forgot to straighten my hair. The one part of me that I hate to have, I forgot to hide it. Travis has been the only one who used to encourage me to leave it natural but ever since he betrayed me, I have felt less confident in it that I already was. Fuck it, my hair is already damaged enough. I get out of my car and lock it before looking at my hair at the rear view mirror and smoothing it down a bit before finally making my way inside the school. Everyone was giving me weird looks while I walk down the hall hurrying to find Selena. "Hey Tay!" I suddenly hear someone say behind me.

"Oh, Hi Sel," I reply kinda blandly.

"Oh my god, your hair looks beautiful!"

"Really?" I reply confused, "you know you don't have to lie."

"I'm not? I've haven't seen you with curly hair since you know when"

I chuckle at her eagerness and we both make our way to our first class. Math, which pains me because Travis is in there. The world just hates me and made us have the same schedule all year around so that makes it more shitty. I make my way to my desk and sit next to Selena and this girl named Blake. I start getting all my papers out that I think I would need for class and that's when I see Travis already looking at me. He doesn't have a hateful look on his face for once, but more of a soft, gentle look. That although got quickly changed with anger and that's when he turned around when the teacher started talking. For some reason, something in me thought I saw a glimpse of softness and guilt in his eyes but who am I to assume. Class went by in a blink of an eye, probably because I was more focused on writing my new song, "White Horse". The day went by faster than usual and to my surprise, no one has said anything negative about my hair. At least not to my face. Soon enough, it was lunch, the part of the day I dread. I sit down at the table with Selena and we start talking about ransoms things. For once, lunch started feeling happy and not irritating with people making fun of me. But of course I had to jinx it and soon enough, Travis came walking to our table with a grin spread across his face. "Oh hey Taylor," he says with a fake eager voice.

"What do you want Travis?" I say and he makes a sour expression on his face.

"Woah, can I not say hello to an old friend?" The audacity this man has.

"Please leave me alone, I can't deal with your bullshit anymore," I reply getting up from the table and making my way to the bathroom completely ditching Selena. I enter a stall staying in there for about 5 minutes before splashing water on my face and once again smoothing my hair down. I walk out of the bathroom and am met with Travis leaned against the wall waiting for me. "Oh for Gods sake Travis, what do you want?"

"Don't act like you aren't happy to see me Tay," he replies sarcastically.

"No, I'm not happy to see you Travis. You betrayed me by believing that dirty little liar and chose your 'girlfriend' at the time who just ended up cheating on you with your friend and blaming you for it."

"Fuck you Taylor, Fuck you. Are you sure that the little food and protein you're getting isn't messing up with your damn mind? If you want to make a point, then maybe think about getting more meat on your bones because if you keep this up, you're not going to make it to 20," he says before storming off back into the cafeteria. Well damn, I know that I shouldn't really care about what Travis says, but that felt like a stab in the heart coming from him. Since I'm a senior, I can sign myself out if I wanted to so I made my way to the office and signed myself out before I made my way to my car. After I got inside, I let all of the tears I've been holding in. How delusional was I to this today would actually be a good and peaceful day. I haven't had one of those since freshman year, so why would I think that would change now? I slowly pull out of the school parking lot and make my way home. It was currently school and work hours all around so there was barely any cars on the highway so that made it easier to bawl my eyes out without someone making fun of me. Once I pull into my driveway, I make my way inside and run upstairs grabbing my piano and guitar. I've had many ideas for songs during the day and music was the only thing that brought me peace in this fucked up world. I spend hours trying to figure out the whole album and before I know it, it was already 10pm. I shower and brush my teeth before getting in the covers and falling asleep swiftly. I guess that's what happens when you can never be good enough for the world so you have to put on an act every fucking day.