Hearts Entwined (I)

Something is happening

Anirudh's POV

Mature content (16+)

Sending her off in rickshaw, I hurried my way back home as fast as possible. I felt so many changes going on inside me at once. I needed to be at home right now.

Just as soon as I reached home, Maa came hurriedly. "Babu, you got completely drenched. You did not take umbrella, right?" She was starting to begin saying more but I stopped her by giving her a quick hug. "Maa, let me go to washroom first, please?" and without waiting for her response I rushed to washroom.

At first I splashed cold water in my face again and again, keeping my spectacles aside. Then I got under the shower, and peeled away my drenched and soiled clothes, keeping them in a bucket to wash later. Shit! My watch! I was so lost in thinking, that I forgot to take it off. 

Shaking my head, I took it off and kept it on the shampoo rack messily. I was too caught up to think about it anyways. 

Wiping off the water from my face, I faced the mirror, and looked properly. I looked down at my hands...those hands which was holding her a few moments back. I could feel my heart drumming still now. My stomach was churning, I was breathing heavily as if I had ran a marathon! And...I...I...now I looked down between my legs and tried to figure out what happened with me when I was holding Rahi. 

Did I just experience my first ever erection? It would be wrong to call it an erection completely, but I felt like some sort of electrical buzzing down there, and then slight movement on it's own. It was gone as soon as it came, like a blink, but the sensation it felt was something that made me lose my breathe. The sensation lingered on my mind, just how her touches lingered on my skin. I looked at myself down again and again, trying to figure out the phenomenon that happened.

As I closed my eyes, I remembered the vision of her flushed face, her slightly parted lips, slight hint of baby hairs on her upper lips, the small droplets of water and sweat on the tip of her nose, the slight dark marks beneath her black orbs. Everything looked magnified in my mind. I remembered the physical closeness between us, her hands were featherlight on my arms, and my arms around her slender waist.

Unconsciously, my right hand moved on my heart and felt it's rapid beating. With shaking hands I turned off the shower and stumbled in front of the mirror, looking at myself. My eyes were stormy. 

"What is happening to me? I agree that I am in my puberty but... that doesn't mean I have to feel all these now. This can't be happening."

Finishing the shower I came out in my room, wrapping the towel around myself. Wiping my hands over my face for the zillionth time, and flopped face down on the bed. I felt like screaming. Never in my life have I ever felt so out of control. Mostly I was feeling tensed that what if Rahi felt bad and insulted? Or worse, what if she thought me as a pervert? No, that did not seem like her body language when she told me to stand beside her seat due to her periods. I guess I should not worry about it, she must have sensed my good intentions, right?

I heard Maa's footsteps, and I sat up on bed. Maa came with food, and my mood lifted slightly seeing my favorite সাদা আলুর তরকারি and লুচি. Nobody cooks so well as my Maa. I smiled at her taking the plate from her and made her sit on the bed beside. Then I silently laid down by keeping my head in her lap. Immediately a stream of relief washed over me, like the soothing waters of Ganga. A soft sigh of relief escaped me.

"Something happened, babu?" Maa asked me in a soft tone, threading her warm fingers through my wet hairs.

"Maa, tell me something. Am I a good person?" I asked absent mindedly.