mafia's husband and officers

chapter - 18

Jungkook's POV :-

I'm alone here with both me and my destiny, those who are not aware of myself ' who is he?' and what is written in my destiny ? And where will my fate take me ? but why is this happening ? I have nothing even though I have something.

It is only my empty hand and the lines on this hand that cannot be known about what is written. I either want to know about this or I don't want to know. But I want to know why because I want happiness in my life. want the love i deserve.

I want that best moment which I am losing. I want a new life where I can start afresh with only happiness and good memories,absolutely perfect life.

The lines on my hand in which I am afraid that if it brings about a scene more terrible than my imagination, which I cannot wish for, who is out of my circle. May I reach a point from which I can never return.

Here I am so stuck in the form of past and future that I don't know what to do? And even though I understand it, I am going on the path or trying to go or have reached it. Because of the present and the past, because of both of these, I am spoiling my present or have done or am going to do. But why ?

No one has any idea at any moment what is going to happen to them or what is happening or what has happened. Am I among those who think all this? Look, do everyone think like me or does no one think? Maybe I am the only one who thinks, and a living creature.

A wandering soul who does not know his destination, where time will take him, and I am following him without even a single wish and with wishes.

Has the time brought you to the right place where your real authority is and will you have to work against the time? If we don't reach the right place at the right time, should I wait for the time, sitting where I feel needed or not? Or do we need to fight for our rights with time? Should we trust the past or should we actually accept defeat? That makes your pain worse with time and on top of that it hurts to look and see.

Time can become your friend now and can also become your enemy, but it can neither become your friend nor its enemy for the rest of your life.

This time, destiny, past, present, future, what is all this about which no one knows anything these days and I try not to know, even if someone knows, he cannot do anything about it. For the one who has understood it well, it is heaven and for the one who has not understood it, it becomes hell.
And if you stay away from all these things and never know about it, then your life will always be happy.

How easily people say that you are just a small child, you have not seen the world yet, when you come of our age, you will know what the world is. I think that if one cannot see the world at this age, then how can it be possible to trouble oneself so much with these sorrows, troubles, difficult situations, why does everything happen, why does something happen at this young age? Now who will explain to those people that one does not need age to see the world and understand the nature of a person, it is time that makes one understand.

Now how do I tell those people what's going on inside me what happened to me, In the eyes of others, this is just a small pain and it will be a drama. That people cannot understand or experience. If you see it through my eyes, you will know whether everything is not a small drama but what a painful result it is. I had never imagined this since the time.

From the time I was born to the time I tried to understand, there was no shortage of anything in my life for 18 years.My mom, dad, my brother, my cousins, my friends,, they was with me every moment, I felt them all the time, if it is put into words it will fall short.

That time was so pure and more sacred than every kind of love, loving you, teasing you, sharing things, having fun, then details like being like my mom, dad, king and queen, it was like I'm the prince And my taetae hyung who treated me a little prince.