[RIIZESERIES2] Eunseok Version: MEMORIES

#3: Patches of Loneliness

Days with patches of loneliness, by myself
What I'm feeling now is warm healing
Told ya, we gotta try, see, we're still together
Like this forever
-Memories by Riize

#3

Patch of Loneliness

EUNSEOK POV

"Wow ha napaka straightforward mo, ayaw ko din sayo no!!!" tumayo siya at sumigaw. "Good" sabi ko at umupo "ikaw pala yung sinasabi ng mama ko na pogi daw tapos mabait pero parang hindi naman. Hindi ko naman pala alam na may lahi kang kidnapper" sabi niya sa akin "Huh? Kidnapper?" Tapos umupo siya "Oo, hinabol mo ko tapos hinila mo pa ako"

"So gusto mo ba akong maging asawa?" Tapos napalingon agad siya sa akin "Hell no!" Tapps tumayo ako "Mabuti naman. You should tell your mom that your against it then tapos na" tapos tumayo siya "Are you serious? Do you know my mom??" Sabi niya sa akin. "Oo naman she was my boss though, mabait siya kapag sinabi ko din sa kanya na ayaw ko sayo baka pumayag yun agad"

"I dont know dude. You dont know my mom when it comes to business mahigpit yun. Mas mahalaga sa kanya yung pera"

"Then lets come clean na we dont like it. I dont like to do things recklessly. Lalong lalo na kung nakasalalay dito ung kaligayahan ko. We should go to her office and ako na bahala sa mama ko" i give her my phone then she looks so dumbfounded "

"Wait wait wait! Stop okay! You need to chill. You dont even know my name"

"You are Karina, the daughter of Kim Soyeon right?" (**for reference: Kim Soyeon (1980) is an actress who starred in a korean drama 'Penthouse')

"How??" She looks so clueless "Just trust me about this" she breathes deeply "How am i suppose to trust you if we just met ? And i dont even know you!" tapos kinuha ko yung cellphone at may minessage ako "Hoy! Ano ba??" sabi niya.

"Do you have someone you like or even love the most?" She looks at me "What do you mean?" lumapit ako sa kanya and tinitigan siya sa mata "If you dont have someone then ako meron." Tumingin siya sa akin "Of course meron ako, i have this guy who ghosted that i really love the most"

"Then i also have, there is a girl whom i love dearly. We even hide our relationship for a year and I even sacrificed our relationship for the sake of my family. After i found out about this arrange marriage, i realized that its very unfair. I chose my family but it doesnt mean na sila paren ang pipili kung sinong papakasalan ko. Hindi ko narin kayang magisip na kung ano anong paraan para lang mapaburan yung mga gusto ng pamilya natin. I dont care anymore. I already decided that i will think about myself now. Karina, i dont know if i can live without Minjeong. She is the girl i really love. So please help me and also help yourself"

"You.." she said then i hold her hand "Please, i also feel that you dont like to trap yourself with someone you dont love" binitawam niya yung kamay ko and she looks at me "Okay. Lets go later. Even its too sudden. May point ka sa mga sinasabi mo. But again, my mom isnt a joke--"

"Anong gagawin niya? Sasabihin niya lahat ng secret ng pamilya ko. Edi go! Baka tulungan ko pa siya. Im not scared anymore. Karina. I know we just met. Being scared is already overrated and if you show it to her, she will target you. Besides, my family secrets shouldnt be a secret for any longer. Overdue na nga eh. Kung tutuusin, sobra ko ng binuhat lahat ng kasalanan ng mama ko to the point that i didnt notice that it slowly breaks me and hurts the people around me especially my brother and her---" hindi ko na alam bigla nalang ako naluluha. Ano naman kung mapapaiyak ako? Kapag lalaki hindi na ba pwede mapaiyak? After all, i'm still a human being. "Aish~" sabi ko