Spin You Around

Part 3

Paisleys POV
We get in the car and instantly I am bombarded with questions from Allie
"We have been best friends since the day you moved to LA and you have NEVER mentioned anything about Morgan Wallen so right now you have some explaining to do" she says crossing her arms
" I guess I never told you because I knew you would blow it out of control" I say gripping the steering wheel
" Well explain some things at least"
" I have known Morgan since we were 5 years old, he was my neighbor and our moms are best friends. I haven't seen him in Seven years.." I say trying to give as little detail as I can
"Theres alot more than what your telling me, you guys were not just friends so please enlighten me"
"Fine... Morgan and I dated for awhile growing up but it was nothing..." I say looking at the road
"How long did you guys date anyway 1-2 years??"
I clear my throat and say quietly "7 years"
"You what?! You dated this man for 7 years and say it was nothing, waittt hes the guy you almost married! Before moving to LA?! Isn't he! You almost married MORGAN WALLEN" she says putting her hand over her mouth.
"Yep he's the guy I almost signed my life away too"
"You never told me why though" she says trying to pry at a question is not ready to answer yet.
"I promise I'll tell you but rightnow I just need to sit in silence before I have to bring up the past with a man I used to love"
"Okay" she says respecting my request.
On the drive home  my head was racing , why did I agree to this.
I get back to my apartment and Allie walks back to hers. I look around my apartment and it's pretty much clean other than the Chinese takeout on the counter and the countless papers I need to grade for my creative writing class on my dining room table. I check my phone which I left on the table before I went to the concert. I have 3 missed calls and 5 text messages.
One call from my mom and two missed calls from my boyfriend Will. I decide to check my texts
Mom
"You went to see Morgan!"
"Did you see the news article?"
"Tell Morgan I say hi I know you Paisley Jade, be careful and don't do anything stupid"
Great how in the world does my mom already know I was there. I decide to pull up recent news of Morgan Wallen and see my face as he's singing to me. "Who is this mystery girl Morgan Wallen seems to be singing to all night at his concert in LA". I put my phone down and scream "fuck. Will is gonna be so mad"
I look at my texts from Will
"Haven't answered me all night where are you?!"
"Looks like you decided to go party with Allie, Thanks for telling me. Text me when you actually have time for me" I sigh as I see his text come through, luckily he hasn't seen the article yet or else I'd be in big shit. I reply back to Will
"Sorry I didn't tell you, I'll call you tomorrow and explain I'm really tired rightnow and gonna head to bed" I put my phone down back on the table when I hear a knock on my door. I look through the peephole and see Morgan standing there with his hands in his hair and flowers in his hand. I open the door and a smile crosses his face
"Come in" I say motioning him to come in. I see his eyes wonder my apartment.
"It's pretty I like it here"
"Thanks" I say standing awkwardly in the middle of the room
"Theses are for you" he says handing me the most beautiful flowers I've ever seen. I walk towards the kitchen to put them in a vase.
"They are beautiful Morgan, thank you". He follows me like a lost puppy waiting for me to say something else. Frankly I don't know what to say so I just walk out to my balcony. I sit down and he sits down right next to me.
"Paisley, can we please talk" he says trying to reach for my hand. I let him grab my hand and say
"We are talking Morgan what else is there to say"
He starts rubbing circles into my hand when he says
"Let me explain about the night I left"
I sigh "the night you left and never said goodbye. The night you abandoned me and didn't see you tell now"
"There's more to that story I hope you know that" 
"I don't Morgan because you never talked to me again. it was like you what we had was nothing to you" I say taking my hand out of his
"Your the one that said no when I asked you to marry me"
"You would have known the reason why if when I came to find you the next day you were there. But no you were gone"
Morgan runs his hands through his hair "let's explain each others sides then, that's why I'm here to tell you why I did the things I did"
"Fine you go first, but I'm grabbing a beer first" 
I walk to the kitchen and grab a six pack out of the fridge and place it down in front of us.
"Grab one your we're gonna need it" I say as we both laugh
He grabs a beer and starts talking " Paisley we were 21 we were together for 7 years. I knew I wanted a career in music but I knew more I wanted you to be my wife. I loved you so much and still do when I proposed that night I thought you were gonna say " yes"  We talked  about getting married and starting a life together , I had this whole party planned after and everything with our family and friends. I was so hurt and confused when you said no"
"Morgan I didn't say no I told you I had alot going on and I wasn't even in the right head space to make that kind of decision" I say with tears strolling down my eyes. Morgan try's to wipe my tears when I look the other way.
"I told everyone at the party that you said no, everyone left and I went to the bar. I drank in the corner crying into my beer. I never felt more hurt in my life. I got a call later that night telling me I had to fly out to LA to be on AGT tomorrow. The next morning I came to your house. I was coming to tell you to come with me and that I didn't care if you didn't wanna marry me now I just wanted you to be by my side on this next journey of mine"
"You never came though I never saw you" I say as the tears stroll down my face harder.
"Let me finish" he says wiping my tears and grabbing my hand.
"I came to your house and your brother  was sitting on the steps drinking a beer, I told him what I was coming to do and he told me that if I really loved you I'd let you be I tried to fight what he was saying but with the most sincere voice he told me that we both had different dreams in life and that we both needed time apart and if I loved you I would let you find yourself and if the stars align and you wanted to come back you would. He told me to leave because it was the best thing I could do for you. So that's what I did I left because I loved you and wanted what was best for you. I tried for the first two years having you come back I'd call your mom, your brother I even asked my mom to talk to you but they told me you moved away and went to college and that your life was good and that we both needed to focus on ourself before we came back together" he squeezes my hand and looks me in the eye
"Trust me Paisley I didn't wanna leave and I tried, you had my blocked I tried calling you multiple times, you have to believe me" he grabs another beer and I do as well. I am so mad at my brother for trying to know what's best for me. I could be married and have a couple kids by now but I'm here being a fucking teacher with a controlling boyfriend and living alone unhappy. I take a sip of my beer and reply
"I said no because Alex and I just found out our dad died my mind was all over the place. I wanted to marry you, you know that. I just didn't expect you to propose on one of the worst days of my life. I didn't wanna spring the whole dead dad thing on you while you were trying to ask me to marry you. So I said I wasn't ready to make that decision after hearing the news not even an hour after I found out, I came to your house the next day to explain why I said no but when I got there you were gone, every trace of you missing like you never even existed. So I applied for colleges as far away as I could and got excepted and left and never turned back" Morgan starts to cry
"If I would have known I would have stayed. fucking Alex never told me. He probably just wanted us to be miserable just like him after he found out the news. I'm so sorry about your dad Pais god this whole thing was such a miss understanding. How could I be so stupid"
" we both made mistakes and some pretty bad judgement calls, at least we got some closure" I say wiping my tears.
" we sure did" he says looking into my eyes the way he used to before he would kiss me
" I've missed you paisley"he says wrapping his arms around me.
"I've missed you too" I say as he's about to lean in and kiss me. I pull away before he has a chance because I hear the door fly open and hear Wills voice yelling from the front door
"What the fuck is going on here"